ive blown my 5 50ks live d
Hey everyone,
I'm writing this right now feeling completely crushed, frustrated, and honestly lost. I just needed a place to vent to people who actually understand what this feels like.
Trading literally changed my life. After taking home some big payouts, everything felt different. I was so happy, and for the first time, I felt like I was building a real future through the markets instead of being stuck grinding at my day job.
Then came the waiting game. It took the prop firm a whole month to finally set up my live account. The anticipation built up, and when I finally got the keys... I blew the entire thing in just two days.
I don't even know how it happened so fast. Maybe it was a lack of patience, maybe my execution fell apart, or maybe the pressure just got to me after waiting so long. Standing right now between the reality of making real money through trading and going back to the exhausting grind of my regular job is breaking me mentally.
Has anyone been in this dark spot before? Do prop firms usually let you buy another account right away after blowing a live one, ?