I think I’m done
I think I am bowing out as a professional peer. Outpatient MAT as a Coach, Residential as an alumni coordinator. This second one… I am hunting people down to see if they have ‘relapsed’ and to coax them back. I use the quotations because any use warrants my attack.
I can’t talk them through it. I can’t support them, I can’t let them advocate… I sell.
This is what I call Moral Injury. I run a nonprofit for free peer-led meetings… because I believe in peer support and that recovery is free to whoever seeks it.
I have a quota on a percentage of clients in treatment have to be alumni. I have to make hundreds of calls a week.. I feel like I’ve been duped. I’m certified and registered w my state’s Board of Counseling… and I’m about to put an apron back on and start waiting tables again.
That’s it.. glad I said it.