How are you dealing with people?
I’m currently awaiting the results of a second amnio after being diagnosed with low-grade mosaicism T21. I’m 21 weeks pregnant now. We’re not sure what we’ll do if these confirm the previous results.
I feel it’s getting harder and harder to deal with people. Just anyone. I don’t feel like talking to my closest friends, while simultaneously I’m disappointed when they don’t reach out or respond in a way that feels right. Whenever I do meet or talk with them, I just feel exhausted afterwards.
I struggle to determine what to tell people who are not in my direct inner circle. I don’t like hiding my pregnancy but obviously I don’t feel happy about it at the moment. If someone happily asks about my pregnant belly, I tend to respond in a “yes thanks but…” manner but the levels of details I give are different. Sometimes I say there’s complications. Sometimes I say there’s a genetic abnormality without specifying what. Sometimes I say it’s Down, leaving out the mosaic part. And sometimes I just try to explain, but the situation is so complex that it’s hard.
Obviously, the responses vary from being empathetic and understanding to mentioning how cute and fun children with Down are. It never got directly judgmental for me (yet) but it makes me miserable either way.
I notice I’m avoiding people more and more. It feels more comfortable in my own bubble, but I also feel very alone. It’s very unlike me to close myself off.
How are you dealing with people around you? How much do you tell them? Any tips?