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I’m looking to prepare for LSD micro-dosing. I’m currently looking for appropriate equipment to get started. I believe all I need is a bottle, syringe/dropper, and a distilled liquid?

If any one has any recommendations on what size bottle and dropper to use and if there is a preferred alcohol or water to buy.

Ideally if I can just get those products off Amazon that would be easiest. I have a 150ug gel tab that I want to use in this process. I’d appreciate the help!

I’m going to begin micro-dosing tomorrow with the Blue Ape strain of mushrooms. I’ve packed capsules with .15 grams of ground up blue ape. Is this an appropriate amount for micro-dosing? My plan is to do 4 days on 3 days off for a few weeks. Is there an ideal time of day to take it especially if I’m at work from 9-5? It seems I have a higher tolerance than most as I’ve done 3+ grams of mushrooms probably at least 10 times by now, all with the last year.

I took MDMA for the first time yesterday, a 105mg dose, with the intention of using the experience for healing and self reflection. It ended up being one of the most meaningful experiences I’ve had in years.

Roughly three years ago, I went through what felt like a serotonin syndrome experience after a severe reaction to an SSRI. Afterward, it was like the volume of my entire life was turned down. I felt physically and emotionally numb, disconnected, and detached from reality. My senses felt like they were operating at 20%, I lost most of my ability to taste, feel pleasure, experience libido, and truly connect with the world around me. Over time, I became numb to the numbness.

Since then, I’ve tried different approaches to reconnect with myself. Ketamine last summer helped somewhat. Psilocybin mushrooms months ago created a huge shift and lifted the suicidal thoughts I had been carrying for so long, releasing a large amount of my depression. LSD showed me the depth, beauty, and exploration that life still had to offer when I had been stuck in what felt like a dark, empty void.

But MDMA felt different. For the first time in years, I felt completely safe inside my own mind. It was like these concrete thoughts, judgments, fears, and walls I had built around myself started breaking apart like a glow stick until all that was left was the light inside.

While talking with a friend, I was able to explain my thoughts, struggles, and the patterns that have kept me trapped in a way I never could before. There was a clarity and openness that allowed me to finally communicate what I had been feeling for years.

It felt like a wall came down. Many walls. I could feel my feet on the kitchen floor again. Breathing through my nose felt calming and pleasurable. Small sensations that most people never think twice about suddenly felt meaningful because I realized how disconnected from them I had been.

30 hours later, I went for a 5 mile run and continued having new thoughts and realizations. I felt more connected, present, and aware. The experience seemed to help me break through some of the obsessive thinking patterns and mental barriers that had kept me stuck.

I’m grateful I was able to experience this. After years of feeling disconnected from myself and life, it reminded me that those parts of me weren’t completely gone.

At the same time, I understand why something that pleasurable comes with fear of reliance.Feeling that good after years of struggling showed me both its potential and why it should only be a temporary tool. My goal isn’t to escape into that feeling, but to use the experience to continue healing and reconnecting with life.