Feeling that life is over
I did the surgery a year ago, a complete disaster. Huge pupils and decentered ablation. Since then its been just pure suffering and misery. Constant visual distortions be day or nighttime, constant blurriness, ghosting, starbursts, halos, glare, glow, floaters, they just suck out the joy of life that i once had. Everything always looks ugly and wrong. I cant stop thinking about it and dwelling on my situation. I have tried scleral lenses and they help with some of the issues but they introduce a lot of new ones, same for miotic drops. I just cant bear the thoughts of having to live the rest of my life like this. I feel that my old self is completely gone, my goals, my hobbies, my joy for life, everything gone. I feel i will never be happy again. I feel that i died that day on that bed. I never found a way to cope with the situation, i feel my life is pretty much done at 26 years old, im just an empty shell now, waiting for death to come. Sorry, i just needed to vent a bit.