I don't know what's wrong with me. I really need therapy. But I can't have therapy. My life is going no where now
I am at a point in my life where i multiple things have gone wrong.
I can't even tell WTS wrong cause everything seems wrong.
Where can we even start.
Im single 20m no frnds, conservative family, never really had any gf, introvert
Im addicted to masterbation, I can't talk to girls or even be frnds with them, even the one frnd I have is like just an acquaintance rest I have no one to talk to
Parents label themselves as liberals but really are conservative.
I tried chatgpt therapy but its not working
I masterbate all the time, can't sleep, I'm thin and malnourished ahhh what else depressed, might have autism, adhd, SAD, OCD ptsd God knows wt I have
Can't gp for therapy though, cause I love in a country where ppl don't value therapy like at all it's useless
I can't even cry, I want to shout and cry at the top of my lungs but I can't and that sad
My life is sad and depressing from the inside
I can't stop being addicted to masterbation, I can't study, I have dark circles, I can't exercise, basically I live in a jail
My own jail
Idk wt can cure me at all this point
Ppl tell suicide is for losers fine, then what is the solution for me
Like what do I do
I tried to read on stuff but it's useless, really useless
I just wanna kill myself but can't cause I'm a coward
I don't know wt to do with my life
Ur prob not reading all of this cause WTS there in this to read it 20 yrs worth of waste
I don't think I'll get someone to talk to
Online is fine but I dont think I'll ever get a therapist physically
I feel like going to a mental institution
So ya that's it