One of the people who has been harassing me for years under Satan's influence died unexpectedly this week and I have conflicting emotions.
I've posted about this many times and it's a long story how it all started but I believe it is related to my time in the new age and the evil that I allowed in my life during that time by being involved in the occult. It started around that time and there have been some very creepy things that have happened that indicate demonic activity. It's continued even after I came back to Christ but I believe that I'm to blame for this because God used their harassment to turn me back to Him and I was very stubborn in doing so. This is not the first person involved in the harassment (it is a huge group of people, even people I don't even know who have basically been recruited to help try to harm me) who has passed away during this but this is the first time it's been someone who was spearheading the harassment. Part of me is very sad and misses who this person was when they weren't trying to harm me. I think there is also sadness as a Christian person changed by the Holy Spirit - such as how David was able to mourn the passing of his worst enemies. But then there is also the part of me that might feel relieved at being free of someone who tormented me constantly.
Months ago, I tried to start seeking reconciliation with these people and it just seemed that it was not possible at all. There are also reasons why I have to consider that God may not want these people in my life (like the possibility of them influencing me toward worldliness if they were back in my life). All of these people have areas of their lives where they are open to serious demonic influence - they are doing drugs, involved in the occult themselves, involved in false religion or false teachings or just generally living very fleshly lives. That is why they have been able to be used like this. Please pray for me and all those affected. Thank you.