u/VoiceOfAnonTV

Like, any specific thing you don't have any memories of but wish you did
Could be a scene from source canon that you wish you knew how it went in your memories, or a a question you can't remember the answer to, or anything really

For me, some things I wish I could remember would be how I ended up with my job in the first place (PC), how my friends and I even got as close as we were (CS), what my wife looked like (OI) or how exactly two of my relationships with two specific people I can barely remember went (VP)

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(Yes I am once again too tired to make a "proper" post, I'm having a bad week and I used up all my yapping points at the start of it smh /silly)

(Anyways I'm going to sleep, have a good day all of you /lh)

(Long ramble ahead, do excuse my many rambles recently /lh)

Like on paper, I know kin is involuntary and link is voluntary
But I can't be the only one who finds this definition a bit unspecific, right-
Like there's bound to be a certain grey area between the two (especially when it comes to psychological kin), or cases where someone isn't sure of it themselves

Or things like, if one feels an involuntary draw to a certain identity but then consciously chooses to step into it in one way or another to satisfy that draw

Example of the latter being what happened with one of my own kins at first, with me just feeling that feeling like I really really wanted to experience being him so I scripted a whole DR to be him in there
(Which I know it feels different from the more "regular" feeling of wanting to be a character because of something they have/are, or similar things-)
And only after that did his identity invade me in this world too ^^ /silly

And generally things like this sort of distinction have made me really anxious to engage in kin spaces before, since I was never really sure if my experience was "too voluntary" to belong here because it often starts out with a sense of "I want to be seen as them" or "it hurts to not be them" rather than "I think I am them"

...Which I'm pretty sure is kind of what my first ever post on this subreddit was about, now that I think about it-

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But yeah :>

Personally, I'd only call it a link if the choice to identify as them is 100% voluntary
Like if there's a thought behind it like "being them would help me cope with this thing, so I'll be them" or "I choose to be this character because they're cool and it would be fun"
(Not the only thoughts that could be behind it of course, just going for the obvious ones to give examples)

While if there is some involuntary feeling/compulsion behind it (like dysphoria/a need to be this character/whatever else there could be), I'd still call it a kin even if there was the choice to "step into that identity" and say "okay, I'll be them then"

Of course if it is somewhere between voluntary and involuntary and someone specifically refers to it as a link then I will do the same (for that someone specifically), but more generally speaking I'd draw the line closer to the voluntary side if I had to

And of course I'm sure there's at least one microlabel one could use for something between the two, but I also know not everyone likes to get too specific with labels (I personally don't) so you know

But that's just my thoughts on the matter
And I'm curious if anyone else has any, so please do share if you'd like :>

That's it from me for now, hope you all have a good day ^^

- Anon

I don't know how many of us here are into reality shifting, but if you are (or even if you're not and just know about it I guess), I've had this thought for a while

Say, if you wanted to shift into a "fictional" reality either solely or primarily for the purpose of shifting into a reality where you are a certain character (or if you're further down the journey and you already have, and so one of your DRs has you as them)

Could that by itself be considered a type of fictionkin/fictionlink?
Like identifying as a character specifically because they're you in the reality you want to/are shifting to, and where the desire to shift to be them predates the identification in a way (as opposed to already knowing your kin and wanting to shift into your source because it's your source)

Like, say, personally I'd consider it a link if you actively made the choice to want to shift to be that specific character
And a kin if something just unexplainably compelled you first/you didn't actively choose who you feel so drawn to like that

Because I feel like that's initially what happened for me with Chishiya in particular (and maybe PC? It's been nearly 6 years since she got here so I'm not sure about the exact timeline anymore), like at first I just felt really compelled to shift to be him and then it expanded to my current world identity and became a proper kin before I knew it-

(And btw if anyone's curious, I never did quite make it there but I did manage to get a few memories from that timeline, and I'm pretty sure I managed to channel my Arisu at one point which is how I knew he's my primary F/O as him ^^)

Not sure if anyone else has ever experienced something similar (or if I'm making myself clear here tbf-) but I kind of want to see if anyone has anything to say about that idea
And if you have, do feel free to tell, I'm always down to hear :>

But yeah, that's it for me for today (thank fuck I remembered this right before I was going to make a silly filler post /silly /might still do that one later who knows)
Have a good day everyone ^^

(not plural btw, just talking like this for clarity's sake)

I don't know I was at uni earlier and there's this one girl I always talk to and recently I realized that like... I think Ody liked her a lot more than I do-

Not that I hate her or anything, she's a decent person overall, I just fear I'm less attached to her most of the time (beyond knowing he's fond of her at least). that or I just have a lower threshold when it comes to what does and doesn't drain my social battery /lh

Plus like I (VP) technically wasn't even around yet when the "whole" of Anon met her, it was mostly just Ody at the time
And I mean it was fine when we were both at the metaphorical console? But it has mostly just been me kind of covering for him since around march so. yknow

This type of stuff does also apply to less serious things though
Like almost every other part of Anon's favorite character from my source (not counting me of course, we all know I'm the best >:D) being Sir Pentious while specifically mine is Valentino (gee, I wonder why-) /silly

Or an actual example that happened today way after I started to think about this
On my way home I had to go through a thunderstorm and I could swear I felt the dread from one of the others when seeing the lightning (pretty sure it was Odysseus, considering his whole thing-) meanwhile I... kind of felt excited actually? Weird considering my own in-source past but still ^^

And I don't know, is this like a thing for polykin?
For different fictotypes to just kind of have different opinions on the same thing. and then actively feeling thost contrasting opinions (either feeling them change with shifts, or at the same time). Does anyone else ever get that? Curious if it's just me or not

Very sorry if this is scattered btw, I'm really tired as I'm writing this-
But... yeah. that's about it (istg I meant to post this hours ago but anyways /lh)
Have a good day all of you, tune in later I guess ^^
- VP

Anyone got any ideas on what would be involved in it?
Can be vague, can be specific, I can work with whatever ^^

(I need this for... fanfic writing purposes, yep :>)

Most of the time when I see a question like this asked, the topic is on romantic selfshippers specifically, so I'm curious what your thoughts are on platonic or familial ones
Like, if someone platonically/familially selfships with you/your kin and all
Or even just say stuff like "(character) is my bestie/child/sibling/etc etc", jokingly or not

Personally? I think they're cute ^^

I haven't come across a particularly bad one yet and there is this one user on a platform I lurk on at times, not sure if they'd consider it selfshipping but basically their whole bit is that they're my mom-
And be it because something tells me I didn't have that good of a relationship with my actual in-source parents or just because of how sweet their comments get, I just smile every time I come across their stuff

Like "yes, please, I do need a mom, please hug me :< /silly"
(I would never out myself to that person) (also my current world mom and ENTJ are enough for me) (but you get my point)

Just curious what everyone else thinks of this type of thing specifically ^^
But yeah, late night thoughts and stuff, have a good night everyone, insert post outro or whatever (I'm really tired /lh)

You know it's always particularly fun when I have dreams specifically about being fictionkin (not dreams as my kin, but specifically about being kin)
And it's even funnier when pretty much all of those dreams are set in my university-

The one I had last night was about like, a sort of fictionkin seminar? Or a lecture? Or something like that, but we were in a lecture hall (that my brain couldn't decide if it was indoors or outdoors for some reason) and there was this presentation someone held in front of all of us fictionfolk-

And I remember forgetting my bag in another building but not wanting to miss the lecture so I told myself I'd go and get it during the break between lectures

But then once the break came around, I got distracted by a double of one of my kins and two of their friends who happened to be kin with my closest friends in source
And like, I wasn't even bothered by it? I mean if you remember the last dream I yapped about on here like months ago (I know you probably don't but shhh), I'm already part of the Vox club, I fear no doubles >:D /silly

Though I do remember sitting there and watching them and just really wanting to go up to my double like "you're lucky you have them, make sure to cherish them with all you got" or something cheesy like that (idk I blame the marshmallow machine)
But I never did because I got too nervous to approach them-

...And then the next lecture started and I realized I forgot to grab my bag :<

I remember stuck between wanting to go get it and not wanting to miss any part of the lecture (which totally was really important fictionkin stuff, yes yes I don't remember what it even was about-) especially since the other building was quite the walk away, but I think I woke up before I made any choice

Or... something like that, I don't know-

But yeah I just remembered this dream again and got the urge to yap about it
Life of a fictionkin uni student, I guess /silly

But that's it from me for now, may or may not go to sleep soon
Tune in later I guess ^^
- VP/Anon

So uhhh... r/FictoNetRP ^^

There, fictionfolk RP thing, check it out or don't, I don't care (I am genuinely so nervous right now you have no idea /lh) (also I have no idea how to run a subreddit someone's going to have to help me with this /silly)

Pretty sure I have seen people promote fictionkin-related subreddits before? If I'm not allowed to post this, please do let me know-

But yeah that's my post for today (maybe) (I may post something else later, who knows)
Someone hold my hand man- tune in later ^^
- VP

Except it feels more exponential than anything (this is not the right word but I don't have one for what I actually mean-)
Not counting PC since she has no canonically confirmed age (and I don't remember any specific age either), or ENTJ since she's timeless and ageless

But when I looked at my trajectory of when each of them entered by kinlist/had their turn as my highest
Along with the age of the version of them I identified with the most at that time

With Acer, I (Anon) was 14-16, most versions of him were somewhere 17-21
With Chishiya, I was 16-17, he was in his late 20s
With Odysseus, I was 18-19, he was in his 40s
And now with Vox, I recently turned 20, and he's around 120

Like at this rate, my next addition's going to be like a thousand years old- /hj

And looking back on my older kins (PC and Acer mainly) now, they kind of "feel older" too sometimes now that I've aged somewhat- I don't know how to explain this honestly, I might just be rambling, I'm still exhausted from yesterday /pos /lh

Anyways! Is that weird?
Anyone else got a pattern of newer kins being canonically older than older kins?
I don't know, it's just something funny I've been thinking about recently

But that's it from me for today (probably)
Have a good day everyone ^^

...Though I'm afraid I don't have much good stuff to say myself- /lh

As Chishiya, neither of my parents paid much attention to me growing up
As PC, I have no idea what my mother way like/if I even had one
As Acer, it's the same thing, except in-source I had no idea either- (closest thing was my main handler who... let's not talk about her :D)
As VP, I have no memories of my mother on earth either but something tells me we didn't have the best relationship
As Odysseus, my mother was lovely! But she died before I could get home because she thought I was dead and couldn't bear the thought :<

(Honestly shoutout to my current world mom here, she's great, so much better than most of my source parents <3 /silly)

As ENTJ, I never had a mother. I was the mother.
And hey, there's nothing stopping me from adopting all of you if you need one ^^