u/Wings256

Sunday boredom can be so serious. I had to step out and go to Papa's spot in Makindye to chill. I'm now sipping my Nilos as I wait for it to get get dark then I head back home.

I recently had to end a situationship I was in with a girl because I realized it was stressing me. She was a perfect girl, beautiful, was not demanding financially, she was clingy abit, she liked me, romantic life was good and we had a good thing going on. Only thing that she wanted from me was attention. That was something I gladly offered because I wanted to and because I also liked her. We used to have 2 to 3 hour phone calls everyday.

There were days when I was too drained to talk, but I still had to talk to her. Other days I had to come up with an excuse just to have a free day. Time reached when I realized that those phone calls were draining me since I no longer had my free time. Reaching home at 7pm or 8pm after a long day and then having to spend 3 hours of my free time before I sleep talking to my girl was not the kind of life I envisioned.

As an introvert, I cherish my personal time and space and I was no longer having that. When stressed, I decompress in my solitude and I didn't have that luxury anymore. It's partly why I've also not been involved in a lot of relationships in the past.

That looks like something petty, but it was huge for me. I couldn't tell her that, because it I knew it would crash her and for such a reason. I had to end it and I gave her different reasons as to why I was ending it, however true they could have been, they were not the main reason.

That made me realize that I could be okay in the future with having kids with a woman but not making her my wife so that she has no obligation with me. The only thing uniting us are the kids. She lives her life and I live my life without having this whole commitment of being in a marriage or the relationship leading to marriage.

Hope this doesn't make me a psychopath or judged for being this ungrateful about being in this aspect of life.

Apple TV is good but I feel it's way over hyped. Someone will watch the first five best shows and claim that Apple TV is too good yet it's not that good. It doesn't have range, the good shows are few. I feel there's a maximum of 15 series that are good and someone will base on those to say that it's good.

Honestly, after watching Silo, Ted lasso, Severance, Sugar, Slow Horses, Foundation, See, Black Bird, Defending Jacob, Hijack, Invasion, Tehran, Chief of War, Dark Matter, there's nothing else to watch. Almost everything else is average.

Life has properly squeezed me this year financially. I always thought that I was an honest person but I have been greatly tested this year. There was a month my landlord forgot to ask me for my rent, I also didn't give her that month's rent.

From the look of things, it seems she has also forgotten me about this month coz the month is already half way and she hasn't yet given me a call. If she doesn't ask for this month's rent, I may not pay her. I'm struggling financially and rent is one of my biggest expenses. A break from rent saves me big time honestly.

It's not something I'm proud of but I am just trying to survive. Hope things get better on my end.

As a books lover, this was my go to site whenever I needed to download a book. Seems like it has been nuked. I'm devastated.

I remember a few years back when I used to use a site called Anybooks, it was my favorite. It also got nuked. It took me a while to find a stable free site that would have all books that I wanted.

Seems every good thing eventually comes to an end. I guess I'll just wait it out until social media stops gatekeeping the next best free website for downloading books.

I was so excited to do a pharmacy course in 2019, little did I know what lay ahead for me. This is a course that has frustrated me both in University and after graduating, and at one point I regretted having done the course. The government frustrated us before being deployed for internship, during internship and after internship.

Anyways I'm proud to share today that I have officially obtained my pharmacist's license and am now authorized to supervise pharmacies.

We have not had water at my place for 3 weeks(it has been on and off). National water has been playing games with us but the water has been coming back only some nights then disappears in the morning.

A girl I've been talking to for a month has decided to spend the night at my place. I'm now stressed because there's no water at all in my neighborhood and yet the girl is coming(she's a bourgeoisie). Water is like the bare minimum when someone is spending the night.

Luckily I had just refilled my jibu water so I poured the water in one bucket. I went and got another jibu and poured the water in the second bucket. The girl has to unfortunately use a bucket for showering.

Fingers crossed, I don't know how the girl is going to feel about this whole experience but what's for certain is that I'm fed up of this country and it's shitty services 😤😤

My father has another family so I didn't grow up with him,I'm an only child who grew up with my mum. He used to come home every once in a while but when I grew up, those visits reduced. He wasn't around physically or emotionally but he always came through financially especially in terms of school fees so I've never defaulted school fees.

There were times my mum wasn't in the country, but my dad still couldn't come visit me in school however much the school was near his place. This made Visitation Days at school my worst days as I'd just break down from sadness since the only available parent in the country couldn't come through on the one day parents were expected to at least come check up on their kids.

He is wealthy but getting pocket money from him was always a hassle. I literally had to call him everyday of the week, without him picking up to request for pocket money. And when he sent, he'd send pocket money to last me a week, so I'd go through the same ordeal after a week. That was my life for the whole of my 3 years at campus. Luckily I had some hassles that would supplement my pocket money.

I'm grateful that he provided for me but I'm still pained by the fact that I was never part of his life, never met his side of the family , ever got to celebrate anything with him and he never picks up for most of my calls. The pain was worse when I was a kid and I thought I'd outgrow it but every once in a while, that pain comes back. I also still feel sad because the status quo is still the same and gave up on things ever changing for the best.

I don't know if this qualifies as trauma of some sort but I just want to heal and be indifferent to him.