Worst case scenario thoughts that feel like commands as a Christian
I’ve been having thoughts like ‘what if God asks me to do this?’ and it feels like my mind takes my fear of people and then makes me feel like I need to face this fear because what if God is actually asking me. I usually think about the thought for a while and then forget if they are ‘what if?’ thoughts or not. I start to think they are commands form God that I have to obey and it brings so much fear because it feels like worst case scenario. I know God asks us to do hard things but I’m getting so overwhelmed by all these thoughts and I feel like they aren’t God’s voice. Because they are thoughts due to fear of people they are normally extreme things for me like preaching the gospel in front of a bunch of people in a moving environment where no one speaks in that way. It’s not that I’m ashamed of God but I’m and introvert and the thought of speaking in a place like that infront of people genuinely terrifies me. I feel so trapped like there is no hope and I just have to act on them because they don’t go away even when I pray. I’m trying so hard to not disobey God but I physically cannot do these things (all of these thoughts are coming as I’ve been trying to surrender to God but realised I have such a fear of people). I’ve considered leaving God but I also cannot do that. any biblical or experienced advice would really help :)