u/Wordruler2000

I go to mall world in my dreams often.
But what I do in there can differ.

It's the same mall, very big. Many levels. Indoor and outdoor portion. I might not visit the whole mall in one night's dream, but just a portion of it.

Anyway, a common activity I'm doing in Mall World is trying to find something to wear. I really need a shirt or a dress or pants --- anything really --- and I'm looking through store after store, rack after rack, and nothing is my size.

The dream goes on and on, and is just frustrating and makes me feel...like I'm "wrong" somehow?

Anyone else?

I was in GATE in the early 80s. I AP'd in the late 80s a lot. Stopped in the 90s.
Back then, I did it because I'm a curious person, wanted to see what I could do and where it would take me. I was a teen, right?

Now that I'm in my 50s and have discovered GATE and the tapes, I'm very intrigued to use the tapes for many purposes, but AP is not one of them because I don't see the purpose.

But maybe I'm thinking too narrowly, too small. When I was a teen, it was like exploring. That doesn't seem reason enough anymore.

Why do people even do AP? Pure curiosity and exploration, or is there something more you get out of it or affect in the world by doing it?

Our group took a field trip to a swimming pool. It wasn't a particularly nice swimming pool. It was at a public school, indoor competitive pool. I have vague memories of the trip, but it just seems so strange that we even did that.

Anyone else?

Where do you go to field trips?

Recently I've come to believe that Jesus told humans how to unlock our powers.
He says things like, whatever I can do, you can do too, just in different words.
He was performing miracles, and being pretty clear about how we should live. It's not complicated, but it is powerful, and I think that's why he was killed --- it threatened the power status quo.

Christianity took off because those who witnessed and heard Jesus' teachings were so amazed and changed by the truths they learned, they were willing to die to speak out and share what they learned.

The problem begins around 2000 years ago.

I think over those 2000 years, many many many humans have continued to obscure the Gospels (the good news Jesus taught us while he was here).

We are left with fragments in the New Testament, really in the Gospels.
But probably 90% was lost.

The remaining 10% is there, but it is "made dark" (unclear) in terms of exactly how to use and unlock the powers we have, that Jesus wanted us to know and to know how to use.

Translations of the Bible are part of how this loss occurred. The Church traditions. Probably various intentional programs to chip away at the powerful truths through the Christian Churches by those who held power and wanted to keep it away from the masses.

I feel, though, that there is a way to cobble together some of what was lost. To reclaim the knowledge and the power that Jesus taught.

I'm not going to find it in any traditional church sect. But I know it's out there, I just don't know where to look.

I'm posting this here because I'm looking for confirmation and clues. They don't have to be perfect clues, but point me in the direction of a "maybe you can find something of value here."

Anyone else feel like I do?