Feeling romantically undesirable as a SHS student
Magandang araw people of the party. I, 16 gay male currently in SHS, feels unwanted and just generally undesirable pagdating sa romance department. Alam ko naman na I should focus on things more important, like my acads, hobbies, etc. BUT I just can't help but feel as though I am falling behind sa pag-ibig.
I have no recent serious relationships. Yung last crush ko ay Isang straight na guy na mga 10 yrs ko na gusto. I have recently come to terms na hindi niya tlga ako gusto and that's ok. (Ayun backstory)
Kakasimula lang ng school last month jun 16, and already may mga admirers na ang aking mga friends. Junior high school pala wala akong maging romantic escapade ganon, sanay na ako na single living lang all the time. Kaso ngayong senior high school na ako i feel like oh my god wala bang mangyayari sa buhay ko romantically?!??!
Maybe it's also because I'm gay kaya mahirap makapag hanap ng mga Kauri ko, Pero i have other gay friends din naman na meron na silang love life. (So PUTANGINA ko na naman)
Ako lang ba yung single dito?! Pangit ba ako, hindi ba ako kamahal mahal, i think na i have an average face naman hindi naman ako super pangit noh? Meron akong mga kakilala ampapangit nila pero at least may jowa sila right?!? (yes I)
On a serious note i seriously feel like parang i'm falling behind when it comes to love and hindi ko mapigilan yung pagyeyearn ko for a romantic relationship. It hits me really hard Pag makikita ko kilig moments ng mga friends ko kasi ako hindi ko pa yun experience. Napapatahimik na lang talaga ako sa Isang tabi pag nangyayari iyon i feel like sobrang lonely pag ganun.
A genuinely feel like i'm unlovable, na pangit ako, hindi ako ka-gusto-gusto. I'm very easy to talk to naman madali lang akong I approach, madali akong kausapin, madali lang naman akong makasama. Matalino naman ako. I graduated top six sa buong batch namin nung JHS. Hindi naman ako sobrang samang tao, i keep thinking to myself na maybe there's something na hindi ko nakikita na nakikita ng ibang tao sa sarili ko.
Hindi naman sobrang taas ng standards ko bakit ganto ang lyf.
Comment down below kung may advice kayo kasi hashtag lonely itong batang ito.