Heart anxiety idk what to do
I have really bad heart anxiety and anaemia combined and it just puts my mental health in a bad state. I have had an x-ray and ekg due to the pains I was feeling but the doctors told me that everything is “normal” and that it’s just skeletal pain, but I couldn’t get myself to believe everything is fine. I’ve been panicking about everything, my body feels weak and pain catches my ass every single day and I’m just tired of it, I can barely do anything and I just want to Kms already. Everyday suicide crosses my mind, thinking of ways I could kms and it’s a battle because I wanna stay for family but to get rid of the pain I constantly think about ending it. If I get diagnosed with anything else I feel like that would truly be the end I just can’t do it anymore, the supplements that I take for my low iron levels feel like they’re not even working it helped for the first few weeks but after that was hell. It feels like I’m dying every week, also not being able to do things I really want to do and I can’t do anything about it . My only wish is to be healthy again but I don’t even think I was in the first place, it’s a constant brawl between my mental health and physical health and it drains the shit out of me.
I fear if more health problems( like if I get a heart problem) keep piling on, suicide might just win, but if I try to I will just pussy out which destroys me. I just want feel seen and have someone listen to me instead of my family members as they just brush it off and tell me to pray it away, i don’t even know if praying works anymore. Im 16 and everyday just get ruined due to how my stupid body is acting. If you have any advice it would hopefully help me!
Thank you for reading, sorry if it’s long <3