I am screwed
I am a deck cadet on my second and last apprenticeship on a bulk carrier. Today the captain ordered two times the other deck cadet to go and check the drafts and me never. I recognise now that the officers don’t give me the slightest chance to prove my self despite that I read everything (policy, manual, procedure) and the other cadet gets handed the chances every single day no matter if he studies or not (ex. He explains to him what to check in passage plan and some tricks to make his life easier when making it) I know how to make a passage plan and the paperwork included but I had to search and learn all by myself and some advice from 2nd officer which was not much, but even then I don’t see recognition or some approval from him. What should I do I have 5,5 months ahead to complete my apprenticeship. I am quite a silent guy and I don’t talk too much except work, I see that the captain gives chances to the other cadet because they get along well. I am really worried about my future as an aspiring officer. Thank you all in advance!!!