u/Zealousideal_Lead396

Unfortunately, as a black woman being around other Christians in my town of with literally 800 recorded people in the census out of 20,000 people kinda sucks and the idea that being around Christian men and women did not exclude me from experiencing racism, misogyny, or a terrible mix of both.

And of course, before anybody starts. It’s not all white people. It’s not all white women. It’s not all white men, but at the end of the day it’s like when does it end?

Still the sly ass micro aggressions, still the side glances at your hair, still the judgment of my past as if it’s even half as bad as theirs. Still the pearl clutching purse tightening.

And the worst part is… IVE BEEN CALLED OREO/ WANNA BE WHITE/ or just been told I “ I act white “ my whole life. It’s sucks being too black for white people and too white for black people.

I have to remember that people are gonna people. They’re gonna be ugly, mean, and rude, Liars and against Gods teaching and that all I can do is pray for them. But I really wanna submit to my flesh and start carrying sand in my pocket and start chucking it full blast in their eyes…

And it’s like what did I do… what did we do that makes someone “ love god “ but he utterly uncomfortable with the literal color of my skin as if I wasn’t also made in gods image and a woman after gods own heart. It’s legit sickening.