u/__kattt_

I’m 32f and my panic disorder was triggering by me accepting a new job opportunity after 12 years at my current job. This job I have swapped locations and not only has it been hard adjusting but it’s greatly affecting my mental health as it got more toxic since the merge. I’ve been wanting to leave for the past 6 months and finally got a job offer. I accepted it as a way out and for better opportunities for my future but I took a pay cut. I keep second guessing my decision I think out of the fear of the unknown until I start. I have been in the worst shape since I made the decision. I can barely eat, sleep, or be without panic attacks/anxiety. Thankfully I have meds to help but I can’t stay calm enough to relax without being in fear. I need help or some kind of relief until my two weeks are up and I start my new job. I have an upcoming psychiatrist and therapy appointment.

I’m 32 and I have had a total of 4 jobs since I started working at 18. One of my jobs I’ve had for the majority of my time working 12 years. Half of the time I had this job it wasn’t very great with money or hours but in the second half during Covid it became my main source of income because it paid me alright and I was able to be more full time. This job has always been a stressor of mine but my location closed down in February and it got worse. I got added more responsibilities with no extra pay, it was busier, and I’ve lost respect for the company and my boss. I’ve been job searching on and off these past two years and finally got an offer that I accepted. It’s a pay cut because I have to start over but I have more opportunities than if I stayed as I have reached as far as I could go in my current position. I have terrible anxiety that I’m making a huge mistake and it has been looming over me since I accepted the offer Monday. I have good support from my family and my boyfriend that tell me it will be worth it but it will take time to get used to the change. I won’t know until I work there. How can I manage my deep anxiety as it is so strong? I take medication for it now that I’ve utilized more since I’m not normally this anxious. It’s so bad that my anxiety is intrusive in my sleep. I’ve also been depressed too because even though the job got worse in the end it still supported me the years I have been there.