Litigation: does it ever get better?
Hello! For those who have been in litigation long enough, does it ever get better? I am a 2025 bar passer. A ~baby litigation lawyer~ with three months as an underbar and seven months as a Junior Associate.
I have been fortunate enough to be given regular court appearances since taking the oath. Although still very minimal trial experience as our partners and senior assocs are the ones who go to trial talaga. I am only assigned trial for collateral witnesses.
Ever since law school, my dream was to be a litigation lawyer. Now I am here and I am so grateful to be living an answered prayer.
But for the most part, anxiety gets to me. There are many nights (and days) that I wonder if may napapahamak ba akong tao. If my inexperience is causing harm to others, instead of actually helping them. I dont mind being a newbie because we all go through it. I dont mind if I make blunders time and again, even if people see me, because Ive accepted that I am but a neophyte in this. But I just have this deep lingering fear if my inexperience is already harming others.
Does it get better? Where do you place that guilt when you feel you could have done better? How do you deal with the anxiety of being responsible for another person’s life, property, and liberty?