my life feels completely ruined.
i posted around a month ago on the sub reddit indian aviation, a lil back story is that i come from a very abusive household, and my dad passed away during covid. that led my mental state being very unstable and i did self harm on my arms which has left very prominent scars. i asked for advice on what to do since my dream has always been to become a commercial pilot but i couldn't - due to low funds, i cant become a cabin crew either due to their strict no scars visible in uniform policy. i am just 18 with no support, i have no income source to treat my scars and i cannot ask for help from anyone either. now, many people suggested going for NDA. i looked into it and researched and saw i wasnt eligible for airforce pilot as i have myopia. i accepted it, and i saw i am eligible for airforce ground duty which made me extremely happy. i was ready to give it my all, but then my dreams shattered once again when i saw that ill likely get rejected due to my scars that will deem me as permanently medically unfit. i dont know what to do anymore, and neither can i stay in this house for long because eventually she'll kick me out..