Am I allowed to be great?
I’ve spent the past couple years learning spiritual warfare, and all with all that i know I’ve been struggling on what to do with the knowledge that i have. The way I was brought up; Ive lived my life being selfless and a people pleaser(hence this post), it makes me crazy upset and depressed thinking about the ways I’ve let myself down listening to others instead of my gut feelings. All i can think about is taking my life back, and knowing how powerful magic technology can be i can’t help but be tempted to use it selfishly. I used to feel awful thinking about trampling over a person’s fate for my own personal desires; but all i care for now is exacting my own will in the universe.
Id prefer to keep the practice on the down low because the people im around wouldn’t approve. I don’t even know where to start with witchcraft, so i would like some advice on whether or not i should even delve deeper into the topic or stay disciplined in the perceivable reality. It would be nice if someone experienced in the craft could help coach me, maybe with more knowledge i can reach a better conclusion on how to move forward as a person. In this case can i become a powerful warlock?(If it helps my case I’m open to working with light energy as much as dark energy)