u/agravedigger

Pretpostavljam da je mješanka njemačkog ovčara od otprilike 10 mjeseci, a kod mene je na čuvanju proteklih pola godine. Visoka je i vitka te ima 20 kg. Dobila je sva dosad potrebna cjepiva, čipirana je te je redovno očišćena od unutarnjih i vanjskih nametnika svaka 3 mjeseca. Trenutno, zbog za velike pasmine uobičajenog rizika inkontinencije i razvoja, još nije sterilizirana, no bit će prije udomljavanja.

Navikla je na posjete prijatelja, najmodavca i majstora pa brzo prihvaća nepoznate ljude i pse. Lako se uzbudi oko hrane, gostiju i u šetnjama, ali u stanu nije hiperaktivna, nego se zabavlja igračkama ili izležava. Svejedno, u vrtu uživa u trčanju i njuškanju. Jako je motivirana hranom i tako je naučila osnovne naredbe te nositi brnjicu (potrebno samo zbog propisa javnog prijevoza). S obzirom na alergiju, nemam pristup mačkama pa ne znam kakav joj je temperament prema manjim ljubimcima.

Zbog separacijske anksioznosti se udomljava ISKLJUČIVO kućanstvu u kojem je uvijek netko prisutan ili osobi koja radi od kuće. Pripada udruzi Sirius pa je pri udomljenju obavezno potpisati ugovor o tome da ćete ju tretirati humano i odgovorno te imati na umu njenu dobrobit.

Slikice od sad i kad je bila mala!

I apologize for the long paragraphs, but please bear with me. TLDR: Is it wrong to not keep a dog you don't feel connected to?

To start off, I had one dog (bernese) prior so I have experience with training and raising a hardheaded puppy. Got the first dog as a puppy when I was 14 and humanely euthanized her at 21 due to illness as a last resort a year ago. Even though she was technically a family dog for 7 years (and then moved out with me), I was very involved in obedience and socialization. She actually only ever perfectly heeled and recalled for me. I took her wherever I could and enjoyed her company. I swallowed down the rough last half a year when she was very sick and needed almost constant care. I treated her as I would a human friend. She was definitely my soul dog and I loved her the most even though I was in relationships and am on good terms with my parents.

I missed having a dog and felt that I came to terms with her being gone so I adopted a mixed breed puppy (suspect GSD mix) in January. She was a stray found with her brother. I believe she is 6 months old now (was 2), but her docs say she's 9 months (was 5). I wouldn't say she's *much* more tough to raise than my previous dog, but she challenges me in different ways. I had trouble getting her to relieve herself outside at all and she still has protest or anxiety poops in the house sometimes.

On one hand, she gets stuff really quickly. She can wear a muzzle while I entertain her after only 4-5 separate sessions, she no longer panics at hearing barking after a few days of playing youtube videos, she only chews her possessions, can wait somewhat patiently to be allowed to eat after a week of repetitions etc. She doesn't last long on walks so she gets two 15 minute ones and doesn't show signs of boredom, but settles and sleeps, plays, observes. Which is why I'm very concerned about inconsistent progress with being left alone and even more about what is, I suppose, resource guarding (me).

I've always practiced leaving her with food to occupy her since the day she arrived so that she associates me leaving with good things as she's insanely food motivated. (So food motivated, in fact, that she goes over threshold \[jumps, nips hands\] upon seeing a treat, making training her with food actually tough when it's in my hands...) I was always doing the same whenever my boyfriend was present to associate him with food. He doesn't live with us, but he's over several times a week. Now she's fine with me leaving the house completely for hours IF she was fed and she only whines a bit after she finishes, but absolutely can't stand: 1. me leaving without her being fed (panics a lot), 2. me in another room as soon as she's done eating (panics mildly) or 3. me hugging or kissing my boyfriend with her in the room (jumps on us and then nips my feet or barks if ignored).

I can tolerate having to give food every time I leave, but her possessiveness over me is getting old and only seems to be getting worse bit by bit. Very often when I put her in another room to decompress (with food) as she starts being unruly, she will pee or poop even if I'm calm and not treating it as punishment. I know she doesn't hate my boyfriend because she brings him toys to show off and gets excited at being talked to.

I'm really doing my best and following different guides + applying prior experience (with my past dog and friends' dogs I helped train), but I'm at a loss, tired and frustrated. She feels like a chore 99% of the day and it seems wrong because I didn't feel like that with any other dog I cared for, either as an owner or friend helping out. I only feel attached in the sense that I'd feel guilty about returning her or adopting her away, and the potential she might have as an adult dog. I seriously don't know what to do - stick it out for a while longer until she hopefully slowly improves and I maybe start liking her, or adopt her away while she's still "young and cute"?

Dog Tax -> https://imgur.com/a/BQSPwcX (at the time of adoption & recent)