pagawsa kos akong gibati kay karon rani
i guess im just a fool when it comes to love. its so hard letting go of someone who became my entire routine, even when it hurts nga he doesn't care about me at all. loving someone who wouldnt even turn around to see if im okay makes me feel completely worthless. wala na sad ko'y gi expect pa nga mo balik pa sya nako and i know better than that but god, it hurts. but my friends are helping me survive the silence he left behind. halos hungitan nakos akong mga friends ug akong cousin kay di nako mo kaon. pirme nalang ko nila iinvite bisag asa like tagay, pickleball, badminton, karaoke, clubbing and magbusay pa jud during WEEKDAYS! i cant believe i'm doing things ive never done before. and i cant believe unsa ka satisfying tanan akong nabuhat. also went to a therapist that i should've just done before pero karon ra nako nabuhat tanan. i deeply regret ruining my own life, for being too blinded and for not having my own hobbies. i just want to say sorry for him ngano karon rako ni lihok tanan sa akong need buhaton. i guess im better off without relationship and im doing well being single even if mingaw kaayo nga wala naka beside me. it's fine, i am fine. im doing great and i know weeks (kalimot nako when mi gabuwag) pa lang nilabay pero im having fun right now. i can finally smile again, di na same before sigeg hilak sulod sa relationship tungod sigeg overthink. and i still think about you, my love. but you see im having fun and i admit nga i can live without you. fully booked na akong sched this october hehe i didn't cancel my plans just because im heartbroken, mas ganahan ko buhaton tanan para mawala na jd ka completely sa akong utok. i can be me again. fuck you contraceptive pills.