A child in my dreams
long post ahead…..
this is actually my first post and i just downloaded the app, i just want to share something and ask for your opinions regarding this.
so i keep having this dream of me having a child—a girl. the timeframe is different and the places are different, and the child keeps growing.
the first time i had a dream about this was last year, that was also the time im about to go to college and this happened before i was enrolled. i was pregnant in my dreams and my emotions are not of that content or relief nor happy—i was devastated, scared, and depressed because how can a girl who’s just starting her life become pregnant right? but moving on i kept that hidden from anyone aside from my boyfriend. the second time was when i was applying for a scholarship, tbh i was not actually trying to have a scholarship outside the school since im already a scholar inside school. it was also the first scholarship that ive applied that the government offered and five months later i got that result that i got accepted, i was really thrilled thinking of having so much luck or was it the first timers luck? days before i got that news, i had dreamed about being in a field full of flower holding a baby girl in my arms, she was no longer in my stomach but a baby who could crawl, so in that dream i put her down the field and she crawled while facing her back at me and then she started walking, she’s wearing a yellow sundress and a cap then she pause, the air suddenly got strong in my side but in her it was gentle and seconds later she looked back at me i jolted awake. i got waken up by my boyfriend’s call.
the third time was not so great, i was back in my hometown together with my bf, there was an occasion in our house. after eating, me and my bf have gone outside to walk and reminisce but then we have notice a commotion, there was a baby girl locked up in a cage by her father or so they told us, my mom caught up with us and told us that the reason that baby girl is locked up is because she’s a bad baby and she’s evil. i grow concern and curious at the same time so i dragged my bf towards the baby and then to our surprise she was not hostile at all to us, then i took her in my arms and she started crying—she can walk already—so she started crying and kept having a breakdown in my arms so i panicked and my bf scoped her from my arms and then she stopped, my bf cuddled her and soothed her then after sometime she looked at me and this time i can see her face but it’s quite blurry, she told my boyfriend; “daddy, bye-bye mommy” i was puzzled because why did this child called us mommy and daddy, she kept repeating that phrase and kept convincing my bf to say goodbye to me and i asked her “baby why bye-bye mommy?” she won’t answer me and just kept repeating it so i told her “no bye-bye mommy” and i woke up. it was strange, that happened this year that was february ig, but the thing is my bf’s older brother have flown to europe to work and told my bf that after a year or in December he will take my bf with him. so was that dream about my bf leaving the country? or do you guys think it’s something else entirely? btw i live in the philippines.
so now, the actual reason as why i have downloaded this app. the fourth time i have dreamt about her. i just woke up and this is still very fresh in my mind. so me and my bf was just chilling at our place—we were renting because im in college and he’s finding jobs. in my dream i was pregnant and then i had a baby girl through c-section, both our parents didn’t know and i was super scared like i can actually feel my emotions until now, i didn’t know where we got the money for hospitalization because i was in a private room and my bf while holding the baby told me he have handled it and then it suddenly shifted to us being in a condominium in the city and again he was holding the baby, we have a cat and two dogs, the cat is black and so is the other dog while one dog is white black mix. i was on a call with my parents, super exhausted and they were again celebrating something but i know it’s not me giving birth, so they didn’t know i am living with my bf and my bf kept telling me that the baby needs milk and i kept telling him to please be quiet for a while just until i was done with my call but then i fell asleep in my dream (frken weird actually cause wdym i fell asl while being asleep???) and then my bf woke me up by feeding our child milk in my breast so i took the baby and feed her, i was clumsy but the thing is that i can feel her actually sucking milk from me, and then i didn’t even notice it but she was already months old and i looked at her face she looked like a special kid and honestly i felt worried and then when i looked up at my bf the time suddenly changed once again and looking back at my child’s face it was normal and she’s already like 2 years old. so her face was finally vivid and i think i can actually draw her. the place was in a beach with my relatives but my parents is not around idk why but i saw my cousin there and my other cousin’s wife which was weird for me because she’s in japan working, so while feeding my baby i asked her, “how old were you again when you had a baby” she replied “16” and i said “actually i was thinking of giving my baby for an adoption” she said i will regret it and then the place shifted again and i was back in our condo my bf is preparing a food for me and i told him, he was hesitant but supportive and he said we will get her back once you’re ready then a woman appeared out of nowhere and i was about to ask her if she’s willing to adopt a child and it was raining, heavily raining. i was about to ask her but stopped because i thought about what my cousin’s wife told me and i grow hesitant looking at my child soaked in rain crying and i also cried then i woke up with the sound of my bf voice.
lastly, you may also notice how detailed it sounds but actually some parts are missing which i can’t remember but one thing i have noticed that all throughout my dreams, i was always hesitant.
i wanted to ask about what this dreams mean, just your opinions and i have actually tried searching about this and i just couldn’t comprehend if i believe what ai says. i hope this post will not be ignored, i really want some answers even just opinions. i also want to hear if other women out there also experienced something like this.