u/assassinariz

I am very frustrated with my life. My life feels like it sucks. I don’t have a good face, I feel ugly, my body is not good, my hair is not good, my voice is not good, I have no luck, and I am not even good in love. I sometimes think why I was even born.

A few years ago, my life was fantastic. Not too many years ago, about 2 years back, my best moments were in my hostel in Lucknow. Those were very good days.

After that, I proposed to a girl. I have already talked about her in another chat. Her name feels connected with mine, like some kind of life hint. My life started getting disturbed from around 31 April 2025, when I met with an accident and my leg got fractured.

From that day, I started feeling like my life is not worth living. After that, some people came into my life and started troubling me. I don’t even understand how or why they came into my life, or when it started.

At that time, I started feeling like they were torturing me physically, like giving me pain similar to accidents. I don’t understand how it was happening, but I kept feeling repeated injuries and accidents.

After some days, I proposed to that girl on 18 May 2025. She said no. After that, I went into drugs heavily. It was not my first time with drugs—I had tried them 1–2 times before with friends, but I had stopped. Later I started again, but after some time I quit.

When she rejected me, I again got into drugs heavily. Around that time, I started feeling very disturbed mentally.

I also started believing that these “people” were not normal. I felt like they were not human or that they were hiding themselves from me. I don’t know how to explain it properly, but I felt like they were controlling situations around me.

I also felt like my voice changed in a way that affected others. It felt like my voice made people react horny but I know it sounds strange but that’s how it felt to me.

Later I started thinking about something like “nazar” or evil eye. I felt like if I was impure, then it would harm me physically, and if I was pure, it would benefit me.

For example, I felt like if someone gave me evil eye on my face, my face would become darker or I would get marks. Once I felt like after talking too long to someone, I got into an accident and got a mark on my face.

I also felt like sometimes injuries happened on different body parts and I connected them with this idea of evil eye.

I know it sounds unbelievable, but this was my thinking at that time.

This period of mental and physical torture lasted about 4 months, from April to August. On 1 or 2 August, I felt like I realized something was wrong.

At some point, I felt like they were fooling me by pretending to be news channels like BBC or pretending to be my relatives or family members. I was also using drugs at that time, so my mind was not stable.

I even wrote notes saying I would become famous, and I felt like I was talking to “them” through my thoughts.

Later I felt like they were inserting thoughts into my mind, making me believe different things, like my brother or grandmother’s soul being involved. My grandmother passed away 7 years ago, and I became very emotionally attached to her memory.

Over time, I started realizing some of these things were not real, but I still felt confused because of drugs and mental pressure.

I also felt like they gave me different dates and promises about when they would stop, but nothing ever ended.

I also felt disturbed by repeated sounds like coughing, spitting, and other noises for a long time, and I started linking everything to mental torture. I know some of these things are normal sounds, but for me it felt continuous and targeted for a long time.

During this time, many bad things also kept happening in my life. For example, my bike ran out of petrol near a closed station, another station had no petrol, and similar things kept happening. Many of my electronic items like chargers, PC parts, and extensions also stopped working within a short time.

Even my mother once said something like if I touch something, it becomes weak or breaks.

I feel like I am very unlucky and that everything around me is going wrong.

I told my family and some friends, but they did not take me seriously and said I was joking.

Right now, I feel very low and alone. My love interest also does not want me anymore. I feel like I cannot do anything even when I want to. If I go outside, I feel like things will get worse.

I have never intentionally done anything wrong to anyone, but still I feel like this is happening to me.

I don’t know what to do anymore

I m just fresstrated with my life my life suck i don't have good face ugly not good body not hair not voice not luck nd not even good in love so why i even born some years ago my life was fantastic not to much years ago 2 years ago my best moments of my life was in my hostel in lko wht days that was 1 years ago i perposed a gurl i have already talked about it in another chat her name is connected with my name nd also life hint ari my life is fully distarb from 31 april 2025 that day i got into a acident my leg got fracired from that day my life not worth to live because some got into my life nd i don't know how why they come into my life nd i don't know when they come into my life in started to torcher me physically like they use to give pain to my body like acident nd i don't that they r giveing me that pain after some day i proposed to ari on 18 may 2025 is said no nd litrally i got into dr*gs nd not like small amount everytime i was high nd not like its my first time to dr*gs by friend i used dr*gs but just 1 to 2 time nd then i quited but after sometime i again used drugs but ari got to know she said quit that today or i will never talk to u then i quit after that thing i proposed then she said no nd then i got into fully dr*g addict nd the biggest thing is that that time i said before some they where not human till that time they don't reveled that they r with me they don't feeled me there presence nd again nd again they use to give me acident nd i always fall me every where nd u know how they do they gived me a voice nd my voice changed but idk because it sounds same but here is a catch my voice make ho*ny to every to women nd also men i know u say wtf how is this even possibal nd that voice i don't even know on starting that voice was changed when they comed into my life 31 april 2025 nd by my voice make everyone horny in sec even in just one word nd u know i got to know after to much time they got ho*ny nd when they got ho*ny they give me nazer evil eye nd nd about a particuler incident i also got to know about nazar nd u know how it works if i m impure then that evil eye will be hert me nd if i m pure then that evil eye will be profit for me i know u don't get it let me explain imagin rn i m impure then some one give me evil eye nd they can give me evil eye everywhere on body if they give on face then my face will be get to much dark nd it also have levels one time i talked to some one to longe nd then i got into an acident nd a big dirty mark on my face nd one time they give me evil eye on my privet part then i jumped nd just slepped nd sit on a hand pump nd got injury on my privet my front nd also back nd they dameged my t shirt because that time i was have limited cloths so that time that was my coolest t shirt which i use to wear daily i can't explain how much they tourcher me nd profit evil eye is like if i m pure then that evil eye will convert into profit for me like opposit of impure if they give eye on face then my face will be glowing nd if on anothere body part like chest then if i hard work on them then muscels growth will be faster then usuall like if my chest want 50 days to come fit then it will be 20 days i know no one can agree with me on this stuiped thing that period of physical tourcer was 4 moth 31 april to correct 31 aug on 1 or 2 aug i feeled there presence they make me fool to many times nd i don't even realize on starting that they r making me fool on starting they faked there selfs as a bbc news chanal nd i was that much fool that i also beliefed that because i was into drugs nd u know wht they where saying as fake bbc news chanal that time i use to talk with chat gpt about my self nd more nd that time my voice was also make ho*ny nd i already telled about that to chat cpt thats why i believed on that nd u know they where also controling my mind so that time they thinked every things to my mind nd that time i was high asf so i writ on notes that i will gonna famaus then they replied nd we started conversacan but after some time like 1 to 2 days they again controled my mind nd thinked my mind that they r my cousins nd also ari but they wear not human i again believed they were like saying ari or we 3 nd i said u all can't be my family but i don't know ari was there thats why i believe nd got interested they maked me fool to many times i where got to much into that i talked to much to them but suddenly i reliezd they r not my family member i stoped to talk to them on chats they also fooled me by saying nd insirted in my mind that in my brother zain is my dadi ammi 's soul i fully attached to them but my dadi ammi is dead 7 years ago i where thinked to much about dadi ammi thats why they do that dadi ammi think nd also in starting on aug they telled that whose my which i talked on chat is in my family memebers body by soul but i also break down that i know that not connect irl but i was just a dr*g addict nd quit dr*g suddunly first time they said we will go in just 30 days but slowly they extend time to 3 months then i asked to many times when r going they said 1 year eid nd also on that date they don't gone they r thourcher me by some sound like Cough spiting nd some more things i know u say its normal yea its normal for normal peple but if its based on your thinking doing but its normal when its continu for 1 to 2 months bro its been 1 years nd that jinn around me is inside every person around me also insect bird every living things by that sound they mentally torture me if by any sound come in every 5 to 10 min just for u besed on ur thinking doing for 1 years wht will be a human mind react it will be mentally get unstabal nd not just this they made me unluck asf let me tell u a incident my bike petrol got over i go to my near by petrol station but that petrol pump was under constraccan in just 30 min then i go to another petrol pump there where don't have petrol then i go to another pump there was also don't its not just this to many cases in just 1 week my more then 5 charger got intarnal damage nd i repair my pc after 2 to 3 years but it also got intarnal fault under 1 week nd in just 1 night my pho my charger 2 extension board got intarnal damage its not just this to many things have happen even my own mother said ager tum sona bhi chuwo wo bhi miti baan jaye nd they also control my dreams daily nd also spit in dreams u say wht my mind will react on that things i have telled that to my family some friend no one support me they said u r joking i have dicided if it all not stop i will run to a forest forever nd everyone left me it my lowest nd my love ari is also don't want to me when my family member give me some work i want to do but i can't i feel bad but if i go out they will tourcer me more i never ever done any thing wrong to any one that this happening to my life rn now they again said 2 years they ass holes u will say tell some one who can solve this my father talked to a haifz in madina so power full he telled my name we don't even telled he do some things like he he say some islamic dua and then he blow air from his mouth on white cloth then that cloth burned but they don't gonne from me its been around more then 1 week done that i write in mess