u/auntacid-514

TW: mild (mentions abuse)

hello all, i'm new to this sub so forgive me if similar advice has already been shared elsewhere. for the past 2-3 years, my life has been a roller-coaster of turmoil. i've had to leave the place i found home and my chosen family, to return to my bio-family where i've been dealing with rather persistent mental and emotional abuse, as well as>!physical abuse!<.

owing to the insane amount of stress i'm under with immigration, family, life in general...my intuition also seems blocked. i'm unable to tap into my inner sanctums and feel like i keep floating on the surface of the water while she's somewhere deeper in the ocean.

my intuition is something i take great pride in, it helps me read people, gauge stressful situations, and stay in touch with what is happening inside myself (i also experience intense dpdr so my intuition routinely becomes my guiding light). i'm not experiencing an existential crisis, instead i feel so full with emotions (negative) that i feel like i'm ripping apart at the seams.

someone told me today i have karmic blocks, and while i don't believe in them, i'm starting to wonder if somehow clearing my energy would give me my life back?

if anyone has any advice on what to do here, please help me. i'm so exhausted from constantly being in survival mode, fighting to keep myself going.

disclaimer: i've shared this post on the express entry subreddit but i'm also looking for additional opinion as my post only got a couple comments there. if anyone is able to provide any professional opinion, that'll be very helpful.

[mild TW]

Hi everyone,

To keep a long story short, I finally have enough points (500+) to receive an ITA (finger's crossed I will receive it in the next round).

My dilemma is that I'm currently in my home country after my PGWP expired last year and was planning on an outland application. However, due to serious changes in my concern for my own safety now >!(familial abuse)!< , I'm strongly considering returning to Canada after receiving my ITA and applying inland. I've seen some comments on r/canadaexpressentry of outland applications being processed faster and since I've already been in this situation for a year, I'm debating whether to stick it out here or if an inland application should be my best option here. Additionally, I have savings so I'm not entirely concerned about my living expenses if the process takes between 3-6 months inland, but I do have a job here in my birth country.

Please advice if you can.

some housekeeping:
- I live with my family and moving out or moving in with relatives is not an option.
- My income in my birth country is not enough to allow me to live on my own.
- I'm aware that I'm not eligible for BoWP and LMIA will be too hard to get currently and that I will not be able to work in Canada until after I receive eCoPR.
- I'm not asking for refugee status help as I've worked very hard to accomplish all that I have, including my CRS points and I will not let this blip in my timeline remind me of this time for the rest of my life.

Thank you in advance

[mild TW]

Hi everyone,

To keep a long story short, I finally have enough points to receive an ITA (finger's crossed I will receive it in the next round).

My dilemma is that I'm currently in my home country after my PGWP expired last year and was planning on an outland application. However, due to serious changes in my concern for my own safety now >!(familial abuse)!<, I'm strongly considering returning to Canada after receiving my ITA and applying inland. I've seen some comments of outland applications being processed faster and since I've already been in this situation for a year, I'm debating whether to stick it out here or if an inland application should be my best option here. Additionally, I have savings so I'm not entirely concerned about my living expenses if the process takes between 3-6 months inland, but I do have a job here in my birth country.

Please advice if you can, I really don't know whom to turn to.