Does the kitchen suck or do I suck
I am trying to figure out if I am just shit and can't do my job or if the kitchen sucks or and I am being set up for failure and can't win no matter what I do because I am the new guy. Im somewhat early in my kitchen career but have worked in kitchens for a few years and do have some education in this feild so when I started this new job a week and a half ago at a newer place that is pretty in my wheel house so I thought I would be all good but so far I have been told I've basically only been fucking up. When I'm working the line I am doing okay/am progressing well with my training but with prep I can't win. Someone says make item A with the recipe in the binder , I grab the recipe I check in say is this the one? they say yes, I go and make it and turns out it was the wrong one. I make item B according to the recipe and I'm told its not the result they wanted and I am a cook and should know how to tweak it to be right for what they wanted. I make item C accoridng to the recipe and let the lead try a bit and they say add some of this so I do , lead says yup great, later I am scolded for not following the recipe exactly. I go to make a recipe , half way through one of the cooks training me comes over says oh its good now dont add the rest of flour or it'll be too dry, its finished as is this recipe is kinda like that, I go okay we try a sample trainer says thats good, I go to put it away and guess what 30 minutes later I am in trouble for it being wrong. I keep getting different information from everyone training me, I am instructed to do what I am told exactly and only that and to ask everyone questions about everything but then by someone else told that I need to be independent and figure out what to do on my own and not ask questions. I have never had problems like this in any restaurant or even any job that I've worked before and I feel like I'm going crazy. I'm having a very hard time figuring out if this is more so standard and I am in fact the problem and I just need to lock in and figure it out like everyone else does or if this is a bad situation I am in and I'm getting bad training setting me up to mess up. Any advice, thoughts, just anything would be super helpful to hear.