u/blocked_n_bloated

Stage IV cancer in sigmoid colon with liver mets.

So i went for the liver bippsy, stayed in the hospital with a collapsed lung. They put the tube right through my tittie and i'm so sad. I'm home now and can't seem to get a grip. I'm falling apart. I don't think one ativan per day is quite enough and none of my doctors are returning my calls. No drinking. No exercise. No picking anything up. Can't even go downstairs to wash my laundry. What am i supposed to do? At least my tumor quieted down while i wasn't eating. So there's that.

Not that i know what it means, mri report came in:

Annular mucosal based mass involving the superior and right lateral wall of the rectum

MR-T T1/2 tumor confined to rectal wall

MR-N N1 involves 1-3 lymph nodes

No sphincter involvement

No suspicious extra mesorectal lymph nodes

EMVI no

I deleted my posts i made before. I don't know why.

I don't know what to think. Finally saw the oncologist today. Two months after they found cancer in my sigmoid colon during a colonoscopy.

The spots in my liver are cancer. I mean, there's still another biopsy, but we already know. That makes it stage 4. Sigh. I don't want to spend what's left of my life dealing with doctors. I hate doctors. I'm not sick. I don't feel like I'm dying of cancer. And chemo will certainly make me sick. I am not convinced it's worth it.

I feel like I let everyone down, and that's the worst part, seeing my family be all worried and sad.

Diagnosed with colon cancer via colonoscopy in April. Still waiting for ofgicial staging and a treatment plan. I believe the stress of all that is what caused my gallbladder to try to kill me.

Last weekend, late friday night, i experienced pain that was completely new to me, unlike anything I ever felt before under my ribcage on the right hand side. Closest i can compare it to is labor pains. And since all my other doctors' offices are closed on weekends, i went to the closest walk in clinic on saturday. They ran a bunch of tests and a chest xray, all normal. Ordered an ultrasound because they suspect gallstones.

I already have an appointment with my new gi doctor on friday. Still waiting to hear back from them about whether i should get the ultrasound at the imaging place or wait until my appointment on friday.

But it doesn't really matter, though, does it? Because while the cancer is mildly uncomfortable most of the time and the gallstones cause such intense crippling pain, everyone is obviously more concerned about the cancer.

So. In the meantime, while I await surgery to remove this dang tumor, i need to calm down this pesky gallbladder. I am already eating low fat high fiber diet, but since this happened, i am pretty much afraid to eat anything besides apples and yogurt protein drinks. So far so good. Haven't had an attack since yesterday morning. But there has to be a better way. Any tips on keeping that pain away while I deal with other problems? I will of course talk to my doctors about this but they aren't in a hurry to call me back.

In hindsight it makes sense. I thought certain foods gave me heartburn, but the endoscope showed no signs of reflux. It must have been my gallbladder all along. *sigh* But this new pain is off the scales, and it is scaring my family who are already sick with worry about me.

The doc i was referred to dropped the ball and never called me back, so i was trying to find my own doctor to treat this damn cancer. But they won't make an appointment without that referral. GI doc won't refer me anywhere else.

The GI doc couldn't be bothered to answer questions.

Why did he tattoo my tumor?

Am I expected to just lay on the couch with a heat pad and anxiety brain until they get around to scheduling my surgery?

Trying to stay active but some days are a lot worse than others.

Maybe I'll go see my pcp and ask her.

57, female. 3 cm tumor where the colon meets the rectum. GI dr disagreed with lab results and was kinda rude about being questioned. He spent all of 2 minutes trying to get off the phone with me and did not ease any of my fears nor give me a chance to ask questions.

I don't know what is the right way to tell somebody they have cancer, but that wasn't it. After all this is over I will be looking for a different doctor to do the follow up annual colonoscopies, preferably one that doesn't have fewer than 3 stars in google reviews.

Went in expecting crohn's, left with cancer diagnosis. My world is spinning. Apologies this post is all over the place. What am i supposed to do now?