mourning losing nipple sensation
so I'm having top surgery in less than 4 weeks now (yay!!) and literally the only thing I'm sad about is losing erogenous sensation in my nipples. I've considered cancelling my surgery over it bc I'm dramatic but also I really like the feeling, but I want top surgery more than I want to keep the sensation. But I'm still a bit upset over losing it if that makes sense.
I guess I'm just wondering if other people have felt the same. I know for some the sensation can be dysphoria-inducing, but it isn't for me.
My main concern is my ability to orgasm without having my nipples touched, which i usually struggle to do. I keep meaning to practice (lol) but then I always resort to incorporating my nipples and it's kind of frustrating me bc it's such a silly thing to worry about but I really enjoy orgasms and I'd like to be able to have them without it taking 45 minutes to an hour post-op.
idk. just wondering if others have had similar issues and how they've overcome them if so. I suppose it'll take some learning and practice and I am absolutely still having the surgery but I'm just hung up on this one thing.