Gave up trying to fix it
Have had insomnia my entire adult life. Either I only sleep for a few hours and spend the rest of my night awake, or I spend half the night in this weird half awake/half asleep space that’s not actually that restful. I’ve tried several sleeping medications, but I don’t want to take things like Ambien because I’m a recovering addict. I’ve tried melatonin, etc. I switched to working at night for awhile, that made me sleep too much.
Now that I’m back on days, the insomnia is back. I tried new sleeping medications, one made me bruise and bleed excessively and the other one simply doesn’t work any more, it just makes me less anxious about not sleeping. I completely bottomed out my blood pressure the other day and fainted several times because I mixed medications trying to get to sleep.
I’m done trying to fix the insomnia for now. I’m throwing in the towel. As long as I get at least 4 hours of sleep a night, I can function, and with enough hydroxyzine, Seroquil, and clonidine, I can get that.