bursted into tears at the explosions in the wild sheep chase
Did anyone had similar reaction? It felt strange to me. I did not expect it at all as it didn't seem like a particular sad scene, but the imagery that murakami drawn up in me at the 3 sequential explosions made me burst into tears, somewhat confused.
The explosions represented those miracle moment, where a heroic act came from a unsuspecting, regular(mediocore) man , and yet nobody was there to witness it.
It reminds me every day people fighting and going through life despite that feeling its so confusing and hard, like the one grass that pierce out of the rock, despite the harse conditions around it. It is miraculous and inspiring and it makes me tears up always, and its not a feeling i can fully understand and describe in logic.
I think RAT died for his own ideology/purpose , despite claiming he had a life with no purpose. His purpose was to insist on being true to himself, even if its been ridiculed by the elites of the modern society as mediocracy.
It felt weirdly resonating to me because I have had felt weak a few years ago. I have had these words in my head right around when I turned 30: the first word was anchor and the second word was courage. These words kept appearing in my chest/head and I ve been looking for solutions for them.
Retrospectively, I would say what I was looking for was my own beliefs/values (anchor) and the courage to act and speak by them, even if it seems scary and against the crowd.
The book actually reminds me so much of the wind up bird chronical, which has been my previous favourite book from Murakami so far. It was the first time i've read evil being described in a way and it left a very curious impression in me. That such form evil is actually appealing to the masses and cherished as success. It can awaken something dangerous from them, and all it takes is just one person to do it. This makes it both strong(just require that one person) but also fallible (one person being the bottleneck for succession).
But just like any other read, i am always left with so many questions, particularly around woman and relationships:[spoiler]
- What is the RAT's weakness? He mentioned sex in a meaningless way a few times and I wonder if he meant it as, when he start using people as tools for something else, that is where his desires can turn him into a purposeless man.
- What are the 'trash' in women's drawers that RAT mentioned which he can take out and find something good in it, which is the definition of sex appeal? is this way of talking about them as trash related to the above point of his weakness (to manipulate people?)
- following that, And what is this exact sex appeal he means ? Is it the ability to make another person feel seem and hence unique/special (like the rose in little prince)
-and why did the protagonist Girlfriend lost her special power? Is her ear the magical power that is similar to what RAT described as trash stored in drawers?