Curious about the conduct of my psychiatrist
I am 21 F and not formally diagnosed with any mental illness. I have had long standing anxiety and sought out a psychiatrist to discuss my options for medication.
When I first walked in and he asked what was wrong, I started tearing up as it was a while since I had talked about it and I get nervous in clinical spaces. He immediately seemed kind of annoyed, and kept asking me general questions that I would answer to the best of my ability.
At one point while I was crying, he brought his hands to his face and started mocking me. He said “You don’t want your boyfriend to break up with you because you’re crazy, right?” And right after said “How are you going to apply to grad schools like this? Crying all the time?”. He also kept mentioning that nobody but me has come in and immediately started crying, which made me feel honestly crazy when I was simply emotional. He would also say things like “There’s no reason for you to cry, unless I remind you of your dad or some big scary monster.”
He prescribed me Zoloft, Remeron, and Xanax. While he explained Xanax to me, I voiced that I was a little concerned, but he didn’t let me finish and cut me off and said “Don’t do that. I am the doctor. Don’t argue with me. Stop that.” What I have learned from this is that therapy is probably what will help me the most, and I certainly do not plan on going back, but I cannot shake how this conduct made me feel so small and invalidated.
I don’t know if this is the right sub for this story(and per the rules I hope not too soapboxy), but this experience makes me nervous to try finding somebody else and I would like to know if this really is normal conduct. I don’t expect to be coddled and thought this experience must be normal until I told my friends and they were horrified. Or, if I should go about reporting this in some way. Thank you in advance and if there’s a better sub for this I can ask there.