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Agile-Lime-825's comment yesterday "It's a long process with ups and downs" got me going; I wanted to light a cigarette and start giving out lol. It really does feel like an insurmountable challenge sometimes, moods go up and down and around and around all the time lol

But I'm beating that slowly and I've made a little progress since my last post (where again I got a strong urge to post), so here's something that's hopefullly not some self-indulgent slop lmao

My passes as before are the Mashing energy for intent and Dreaming passes, with specific note for "Mixing Energy by Striking the Floor with the Heels" and "Getting the Assemblage Point Loose"

I attempt to force silence by listening to the tone in my ears, which helps a lot. The tensegrity passes are interspersed with ear holding (see attached images) which is automatic. I didn't learn that and definitely NOT trying to be a Yogi ROFL.

Last time I posted, I posted what looked like a geometric pattern of red dots. It's become a bit clearer now since I last posted. It looks like a kaleidoscope of red and blue colour. It looks more faint though than the image I have posted.

The main progress I made yesterday was with the 2 specific individual passes I mentioned above. When I would bring my arm up in front of my face, the kaleidoscope would be replaced by something like the green image I posted. I did it over and over again and could clearly hold that green colour, all the while listening to the tone in my ears.

I got a notion to post here. Usually, I'm not able to remember what I see or even to put it into a coherent description, plus I'm a beginner so I don't like to post threads. But I'll give it a go now

The tensegrity moves I usually do are from the Mashing Energy for Intent passes and the Dreaming passes. Practice time varies, yesterday it was about 25 minutes. I fell at the first hurdle (got too excited) when I saw the red geometric pattern, and had the urge to write it down for a post.

09/09 practice

I usally see a purple disk shape (see attached images) when I am doing the "hurling assemblage point" pass from the Dreaming Series. More often than not it will turn into the bright blue cloud like place (see attached images). During this day's practice, I walked from my sitting room to bedroom (first time walking that far) and could see this cloud like scene in the top part of them bedroom (see attached). I'm still not sure what I am supposed to be doing with that, but I am trying to stay focused on just dispassionately observing it, trying to force silence.

10/09 practice

I saw something completely different yesterday, while doing the "Mixing Energy by Striking the Floor with the Heels" pass and using claw hands I started to see a faint swathe of colour of green and pink. Usually I claw at these colours and my feet will be moving at the same time. I look like someone who's bad at dancing lmao.

Forcing silence is difficult. I just try to observe what is there and push thoughts out of my head by being absorbed by what is in front of me. Usually some weird stuff happens. Today I had the bizarre sensation of arousal (leading me to later remember Don Juan mentioning sexual energy being related to dreaming energy). Again I force silence, trying to ignore the sensation and just observe the green and pink; then it got brighter (see attached)!

The colours developed into what looked to me like a bright red geometric pattern (last image) and there were a couple of strikes of lightning across its surface. I saw this several months ago but I'm a total scaredy-cat lol, I thought with the red colour it might be the energetic configuration of an evil IOB. Yesterday I was not scared, leading me to think fear is mostly of the unknown and can be overcome

Allies:

The recent threads got me curious about this. I'm trying to consider if I should get one or how to do it (short of walking into a ring fort lol). I'm assuming something isn't watching me already (which doesn't bother me now as much as it used to). Those of you who have IOBs helping you, did you summon it? Did it come to you of its own accord?