Anybody else struggle to "find" the "right" (TL)?
Let me start off by saying that this is an anxiety thing, NOT anything about any one language being "more correct" or "better" than any other.
My brain keeps trying to tell me two things:
(1) Unless I'm going to speak a language with perfect fluency, it's not worth learning.
(2) I need to pick the language to learn based on where I want to live in the future.
For part 1, the black-and-white thinking is obvious and ridiculous, but boy is it frustrating. For part 2, that line of thinking could be helpful, except that I don't actually know where I'm going to end up living in the future!
Because of these two things, I feel demotivated to study as intensively as I know I could. Additionally, I've got 3 TL's (a C1 now B2, a B1 now A1, and an A1) to choose from but, per the second point above, neither of those might be "right," which prevents me from really committing to studying of any of them (not to mention other languages).
I've recently gotten into new hobbies (a new sport) as well as back into old hobbies (art) and it's been extremely enjoyable and beneficial to my life. Unfortunately, language learning seems to have a huge block because of these two self-reinforcing thought patterns.
Has anybody else encountered this? How have you worked through it?