23/F - is this just Rahu MD or do i need a remedy
I used to be shy and sincere . I feel im losing everything and have no idea whats going on . I get urges to kill myself occasionally and do self harm but atleast i used to be good at academics . I took therapy and medications but nothing helps. i feel im constantly underperforming . Now in the last year of my degree i got an unexpected reappear and degree ( MBBS ) got late . Im told im unpredictable which is understandable since im in my Rahu MD . Also my mother insists i should be getting married but im not in that headspace for which i feel “wrong “ . I dont know whats wrong but something feels off which i cant explain . I feel disconnected to my family so i cant put into words how i feel . I feel something is wrong can someone tell me what it is and can i do something about it ?