u/duckie33_

I love helping people, I currently work in retail and I love being able to help people but I don’t want to work in retail the rest of my life. I want to help and make a difference in a way. I have wanted to be a social worker and have been looking out for apprenticeships as I have to work full time and was wanting to see what my options are but I’ve heard that it’s difficult and I wasn’t sure if anyone has any jobs where they find it really fulfilling and that they help people?

I just want to help and make a difference and I don’t know if social care is for me, I have always thought it was but I heard some bad things about it and it has put me off as I don’t want to be thrown into the deep end with lots of workload and timelines.

I have been going to therapy after having a very difficult time last year with going through an ongoing situation with living with a narcissistic person who was very mean to me and being part of a toxic family has led to me having lots of self doubt and my mental health plummeted. I have also been through some other traumatic things when I was younger but I have dealt with it my own way. When I went to therapy my therapist was shocked and was like oh you have had a lot of trauma and we did some tests and i was high for having the symptoms of PTSD. So we started to try the EMDR therapy after all the prep and working on my safe place we gave it a go and I found it really hard to focus and I just felt so confused as the things that I went through wasn’t just like one event and it was like a whole thing and it was just hard for me to focus on it and I just felt like I wasn’t doing the right thing. I don’t know what to do as it’s hard for me to think of it and how it makes me feel as I just push it aside mentally. Is this normal?