i’m so tired
(i’m sorry if i used the wrong flair)
hey everyone. this is my first time in here. i’ve been checking in on this subreddit every now and then for a while, but i’ve tried my best to stay away from it because i don’t want to risk getting worse. but right now i don’t know who else to talk to.
i’ve had severe emetophobia since i was 8, i’m now 17. the first few years were really really bad. i didn’t go to school for a year, barely left my house, washed my hands in water so hot i still have scars, etc etc.
i’ve been doing pretty okay for a few years. winter is bad for obvious reasons, but not even close to what it used to be.
recently it has been getting worse though. i’m terrified to eat anything that isn’t cooked by my mom, and even then i’m scared. i barely leave my house, i stay up entire nights every time i have a stomach ache, i have daily panic attacks and i’m so scared all the time. i really don’t know what to do. every time i feel like i’m getting better i just get worse.
i really want it to stop, and i’m terrified i’ll feel this way forever.