I had to cull a bad roo for the first time, and now I don't know how to stop myself from spiraling. Tips?
I recently began trying to farm quail for eggs. I had 3 roos (boys) and one of them was very very aggressive with the females. So much so, 5 of the hens became very injured and are currently being treated for their wounds. The only solution, then, was to unfortunately humanely cull that roo. I dont even step on ants, so to be brought to that really left a mark on me.
As you may be able to tell I am an animal lover, and this act of nessecity that is a daily part of life for anyone raising poulty has to deal with really has sent me into a downwards spiral in fear I may somehow accidentally or unconsciously hurt one of the animals. Its very very scary and I find myself checking the dryer repeatedly for the cats and feeling guilty when I finally build up the courage to stop checking for the 5th+ time. I am afraid to hold my fragile little lizards or to even sleep with the cats near me in case I somehow sleep walk and hurt them.
Does anyone have any good tips to break the cycle of animal harm ocd? Or other ways I can occupy my brain while doing animal care to get out of this loop? I try music but it stopped helping and I want to be able to care for my pets and other animals without the fear I may hurt them.