23 [F4M] UK - hoping to find someone equally awkward, introverted and nerdy?
Hi! I’m Anna, I’m 23 from West Yorkshire, looking for people sort of close by so it’s not doomed to be a forever online type of thing? And close to my age. Most importantly though, I struggle to feel any attraction or romantic interest towards people I don’t feel I know very well. It’d be a really slow burn, trying to really get to know you before it turns romantic type thing, and even then, I can’t guarantee we’ll click. Please keep this in mind!
This is going to be a ridiculously long, hyper detailed message, so bear with me.
I’m autistic and have very low self esteem, and have depression, social and general anxiety and body dysmorphic disorder. I also have Crohn’s disease. I’m extremely open about all this, and have no problem with talking in detail about my life. I have struggled quite severely in the past, but have been doing well these last few years after lots of self care, therapy, medication and spirituality. I don’t have any friends irl and not many online. Because of my mental and physical health, I don’t have a job, I’m not in education, I’m sort of a shut in and I live with my mum and brother. I do volunteer once a week with a nature conservation charity.
I’ve never been in a relationship. I’m extremely inexperienced. It’s partly because I have such low self esteem, but mainly because I want to know someone’s heart and soul before getting into a relationship. Appearance genuinely means absolutely nothing to me. I’m white, 5’5, quite ugly and fat, so be warned. But yeah, I love writing extremely long messages and talking deep! So please be up for that, I can’t deal with dry or low effort messages. Just getting to know your brain is amazing. Whether its vents, what you’ve done lately, infodumps about things, what makes you happy, things about your past, present and aspirations for the future. Talk about anything and everything! Showing the effort means the world to me.
I won’t ever judge you, but something I personally struggle with is people into casual sex/sexting, and it would be a romantic dealbreaker for me. I believe intimacy is sacred and should require an intense emotional bond formed over a period of time, and I would like someone who felt the same way. I also don’t do drugs, smoke/vape or drink and would prefer someone who didn’t do drugs or smoked/vaped, but I’m okay with social drinking, as long as its in moderation.
I love reading science fiction and horror books! If you have goodreads we can be friends on it!!! My favourite authors are Michael Crichton and Stephen King. I occasionally watch horror and slasher movies. I also really like old pixar and dreamworks movies. Monsters inc is one of my all time favourite movies, alongside Bee Movie and Antz. Black Mirror is my comfort tv show, but I mostly enjoy silly reality tv. I’m talking Ghost Adventures, Expedition Bigfoot, River Monsters. I also love gaming! The Fallouts are my favourite games, I’ve played 1, 3, New Vegas and 4. I also love Minecraft, Atomfall, Disney Dreamlight Valley, and a variety of other games. I listen to lots of music, mainly metal with some emo, rock and a hint of deathcore mixed in. My favourite bands are Korn, Tool, My Chemical Romance and Pierce The Veil.
I’m introverted, and would much prefer to stay in rather than go out. I’m quite shy and quiet until you know me, and then I can and will talk way too much. I’m also really really bad at social cues, and will not pick up on what you’re hinting! I have a few hobbies, I crochet cute things and I love gardening. Yes, I’m practically a grandma lol. I don’t really know exactly what I believe in spirituality, but I love reading mythologies and concepts from different religions. I believe in God, I just dont know who or what It is. I love the botanical lego collection, and collect them.
I want someone who will listen to me rambling about my weird interests, and will then ramble at me and let me listen to theirs. I don’t want drama or adrenaline, just something wholesome and comfortable. Going to second hand book shops, gaming together, showing stupid tiktoks to eachother, occasionally going to a convention, concert, fair or festival. Laughing and being cringy, with lots of honesty and communication!