What to do in the meantime?
Hello, this might have some personal content which I hope is welcome
I'm a psychology student (6 years programme in a mostly psychoanalytic university and region). I'm in the middle of my degree and I've been trying to find some solid or semi solid ground to stay in while studying and organizing politically and just thinking in general (?)
I've always been very sciency, "truth" and maths focused and my degree has shaken that quite a lot. Right now I've found deleuzian works and it seems to me like a sort of conclusive position I'd arrive at, to sort of find myself in the non-knowing critical and schizophrenic position deleuze proposes or offers (feel free to criticize this idea)
But to do that I have to go through Lacan (and for him I must read saussure and Hegel and so on) and Marx and Nietzsche and a lot of other authors, and just in general progress through my degree and through life. D&G are just not authors one "gets" or "manages to pass through" quickly or early in life, as I understand it
Now my question is, what do I do in the meantime? For example in my therapeutic work (as a patient) how do I navigate therapy watching out for deleuzian warnings without understanding him already? How do I avoid getting locked in oedipal triangles? Or choosing things I later find out have power or ideological influences/wieldings I don't feel okay with (like joining as an assistant teacher at a non-critical course (where I'm from each course has a team and being an AT is how you get to be a teacher there))? Or how do I read Lacan critically without locking myself inside his logic?
There are no practical and accesible tool boxes, aside from the issue that that is for the average person. How can I go through that?
The answer may be half theoretical and half pointing to me being dumb
Thanks for reading if you made it this far!!