Unbearable Pain, please help
I think I just need someone to tell me its going to get better/easier.
For context (F/28) I had banding on 4 hemorrhoids just over 2 weeks ago, I've been in horrible pain since. I saw my proctologist a week ago and he said all looks good and bands had come off along with the hemies. That was a lie as I found a band 2 days later in the toilet along with a hemorrhoid. Continuing on in constant pain I saw my GP today that said there's been complications and I've ended up with some pretty nasty external hemorrhoids and has just given me more voltaren. Ive had 3 BMs since the banding, I've been taking coloxyl, metamucil and now movicol. All 3 BMs were smooth and went fine, no pain. Ive had an Xray done on my stomach today to see how full my bowels are although I don't feel constipated.
I don't know how much longer I can handle this pain. My mental health which I already struggle with has taken a huge nosedive, I've sent myself into a full blown panic attack today because I've been crying just to get through the pain. It's radiating through my tailbone and to my groin. I'm heavily losing my will to live.
For pain I am now only on panadol and voltaren 50mg tablets 3 times a day, no one will give me anything stronger. Im taking my sitz baths, eating oats and other fibres. Witch hazel pads, proctosedyl and lidocain cream. I've been trying to take the pressure off by lying on my side as much as possible. I cant get any exercise as I'm just in excruciating pain while sitting, laying, standing, you name it. Feels like tiny little needles shooting in different directions. I feel no one is really listening to how much pain I'm in and its completely flipped my life upside down. I've had 3 surgeries for endometriosis, have a high pain tolerance and have never felt anything this horrible before.
What am I doing wrong?
I would love if someone could tell me it gets better or what I could be doing to help. Just looking for support from anyone that understands.