u/existentialhotdog

One of the reasons I haven’t quit yet is because everytime I try, I fail because I’m stressed. My marriage is falling apart, my schedule is chaotic and the “only think I have,” is cigarettes. While I know that last bit is my addiction speaking, I know you can all relate.

I have quit for 15 years after smoking for two, using the patch only for 3 days. Then my mother died two years ago and my sister offered me one at her memorial. The rest is history. Part of me is oftentimes so disconnected from my body, but at times I feel like complete crap because I know I’m neglecting myself as if I have no value. I know that once I quit, my confidence will slowly return and I’ll feel healthier and be less hard on myself, yet, I’m hanging on to cigs for dear life and they’re hurting me so much. I’m hurting myself. It’s like I associate self-harm with safety or something.

Any advice is appreciated.

I’ve never been. But I’m drawn to Port Townsend for some reason. My family lived in Seattle for quite sometime when I was in my teens, but overall I have no idea what it’s like to live there or anywhere in WA for that matter. I’m middle aged with a family, I grew up in Colorado and have been living in Topanga, CA for the last 15 years. I miss Colorado but I don’t want to go back. I miss seasons. I miss pine trees and I also want to keep the ocean. 🤠 What’s your favorite thing about Port Townsend?