Worried that my first dose permanently nerfed my mind, need some reassurance or help of any kind please...
I finally got my first dose of ADHD medication after a lifelong struggle, and was hoping it would change everything for the better. PCP even put me on Vyvanse, which was the one I thought would work the best for my situation from my own research. He put me on a starter dose of 30 mg generic and so I took it on Friday 9:00 AM. Long story short, it didn't do anything for my executive dysfunction, but it did have some effects that are still present over 48 hours later. The main one I'm concerned about is the effect on my mind. When I first took it, I noticed it made my face, brain, and head "flush" and feel unusually warm every time I tried to visualize, have a inner monologue dialogue with myself, or basically use my brain for any cognitive task. I didn't think too much of it, I figured it was the medication throttling my thoughts for focus or to quiet my tendency to bounce from thought to thought. So my thoughts seemed to be sluggish and they would run into a lot of mental blocks. But then I started to get concerned when it was still doing that well into the night. And my worries started to grow when it still did that after sleeping and throughout all of Saturday. Now it's Sunday morning and that effect hasn't subsided. It feels like the only asset I had to combat life's difficulties has been taken away from me permanently in part. And it was for nothing, because the medication didn't even result in anything positive. Even while writing this post, the top of my head feels like it's hot from the inside, I checked my temperature and it's completely normal so I don't have a fever but it just feels hot. I can provide more details, please ask away. Any amount of guidance will be much appreciated, I've been waiting this whole time for PCP office to open so I can ask if I can continue taking it, as I didn't take another dose after the first one.