This year has absolutely worn me down.
In my 9th year. Highly trained and everyone sees me as the one who’s so good with behaviour management, organised, gets things done. I‘ve ruffled a few feathers by pulling up people who are not and creating more work for others. From the outside I look like I’m coping.
But my nervous system is fried.
I talk to my partner about the situations I deal with as a teacher and he tells me he can’t believe what we have to put up with and how little support there is.
After some health issues and health issues within my family, I have run out of sick leave over the past couple years.
This is the hardest year in a long time and I’m living in survival mode at work. I cry every work morning now. I’m teaching outside my area now too this term. No one checks on us after violence or horrible disclosures, we just move on.
I just needed to vent. I am drowning. I already go to therapy so I don’t know what else I can do. I’ve already dropped to 0.8. I need the income.