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I tried to freeze the moment,
to protect my fragile heart.
I know time moves forward. 
I know that soon,
I will have to face it. 
But could we please 
just 
stop. 
Just for now,
until we absolutely have to, 
stay with me 
right here in our artificial paradise,
drink with me, laugh with me. 
Dance until your legs give out,
sing until your lungs dry up,
the night is your audience, 
my praise as your reward. 
Stay on that stage,
performing until dawn 
is upon us. 
What is to come is bleak and painful,
but this moment right now 
is ours. 

I tried to freeze the moment,
to protect my fragile heart.
I know time moves forward. 
I know that soon,
I will have to face it. 
But could we please 
just 
stop. 
Just for now,
until we absolutely have to, 
stay with me 
right here in our artificial paradise,
drink with me, laugh with me. 
Dance until your legs give out,
sing until your lungs dry up,
the night is your audience, 
my praise as your reward. 
Stay on that stage,
performing until dawn 
is upon us. 
What is to come is bleak and painful,
but this moment right now 
is ours. 

I made you the hero 
of all the stories I tell. 
Put you on a pedestal so high,
I would have to fly to get you down. 
I've been told to lower you,
So I can see you for who you really are. 

I never understood what they meant,
I do see you for who you are,
soaring the skies, capturing the stars, and 
giving light to my world,
You are my hero.
I've been drowning in dread 
and despair. 

You came down, held my hand, and swam with me to the shore. 
I feel pity for them 
because they don't truly see you. 

I made you the hero 
of all the stories I tell. 
Put you on a pedestal so high,
I would have to fly to get you down. 
I've been told to lower you,
So I can see you for who you really are. 

I never understood what they meant,
I do see you for who you are,
soaring the skies, capturing the stars, and 
giving light to my world,
You are my hero.
I've been drowning in dread 
and despair. 

You came down, held my hand, and swam with me to the shore. 
I feel pity for them 
because they don't truly see you. 

Darling you are one for the stories,
you do impossible things with such ease.
I am one who never un loves once
I found it,
But despite me being too generous with my heart,
I have to draw a line.

Captain of a ship, how do you sink a boat?
How do you make a bird crawl,
and put a centipede in the air.
How do you do unimaginable things?

Crying for atonement after
nailing me on a cross.
Barely breathing, covered in
shame that doesn't belong to me.
How dare you!

I may not be able to forget
how you used to kiss me,
But I will never forgive, 
your betrayal. 

So wipe your tears,
and repeat your lines to
her, maybe she will believe
your fairy tales.

Darling you are one for the stories,
you do impossible things with such ease.
I am one who never un loves once
I found it,
But despite me being too generous with my heart,
I have to draw a line.

Captain of a ship, how do you sink a boat?
How do you make a bird crawl,
and put a centipede in the air.
How do you do unimaginable things?

Crying for atonement after
nailing me on a cross.
Barely breathing, covered in
shame that doesn't belong to me.
How dare you!

I may not be able to forget
how you used to kiss me,
But I will never forgive, 
Your betrayal. 

So wipe your tears,
and repeat your lines to
her, maybe she will believe
your fairy tales.

Bury me alive and let my skin crawl from inside out,
If that is what it takes to feel you close to me,
fall me from grace and send me to the darkest corners of the
Earth, if it is there, I can find you. I will go.
If I say, stay and you need me to beg on my knees
naked underneath a red moon.
I will bargain with the gods to make the conditions
So I can do as you say.
Don't you see I will do anything for you,
just to be yours. Isn't this what you want,
undying love, someone to die for you?
I'm willing, I offer everything I am, to you.
Even after this, you are not sure. 
I had to ask you what do you want from me? If not this.

Bury me alive and let my skin crawl from inside out,
If that is what it takes to feel you close to me,
fall me from grace and send me to the darkest corners of the
Earth, if it is there, I can find you. I will go.
If I say, stay and you need me to beg on my knees
naked underneath a red moon.
I will bargain with the gods to make the conditions
So I can do as you say.
Don't you see I will do anything for you,
just to be yours. Isn't this what you want,
undying love, someone to die for you?
I'm willing, I offer everything I am, to you.
Even after this, you are not sure. 
I had to ask you what do you want from me? If not this.

I love him as he is,
as he has become. He doesn’t know yet, but he will
tomorrow, when I heal, and I feel it is time to seal
what was given to us
by the gods of love and eternal promises.

So don’t fear; just call yourself by your alias,
Mine,

and I will claim you to all.

Walking down the aisle with so much joy and pride,
because, see! My love, we have overcome.

"You are loved",
you asked me
if I still care
like I used to.
My dear,
I never stopped,
and never will.

That you had to ask
is a threat to my thoughts,
which are mainly about you,

I am defined
by your perception of me,
My color scheme
is made by nuances
of your radiance,

you my darling
are not the most beautiful
but the only!

I worry
If I say too much
you might remember
who you are,
and return to skies.

But this
I cannot hide,
My Angel,
You are loved

"You are loved",
you asked me
if I still care
like I used to.
My dear,
I never stopped,
and never will.

That you had to ask
is a threat to my thoughts,
which are mainly about you,

I am defined
by your perception of me,
My color scheme
is made by nuances
of your radiance,

you my darling
are not the most beautiful
but the only!

I worry
If I say too much
you might remember
who you are,
and return to skies.

But this
I cannot hide,
My Angel,
You are loved

I always wonder if you forgot about me
but
What exactly am I questioning?

Is it the impossibility of you moving on?
because you did.

Is it when you said there will only be me?
because you lied.

Or is it when you swore you loved me,
and never did.

I laugh at the illusion I keep staring at
and wonder why my world spins.

All I am to you is a past,
even as I experience you like the present.

Maybe it is the mantra you made me memorize.
I still repeat it, like I know no other principles.

For a girl with a wild heart, I am too disciplined 
so that even when you are not near, 
Your rules are respected. 

How dare you look me in the eye,

and with such a tender voice

tell me not to worry.

I will be loved by the right one.

I am beautiful

and I deserve the best.

"I will always love you,"

then always love me.

To me, there is no right or wrong one

there is only you.

Don't walk away from me.

Take a step back

put your hand back on my cheek

and tell me you still love me

in the same way I do you.

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How dare you look me in the eye,

and with such a tender voice

tell me not to worry.

I will be loved by the right one.

I am beautiful

and I deserve the best.

"I will always love you,"

then always love me.

To me, there is no right or wrong one

there is only you.

Don't walk away from me.

Take a step back

put your hand back on my cheek

and tell me you still love me

in the same way I do you.