feeling guilty about joining a gmc
i gave neet with my 12th this year scored around 590 in may 3rd mock and 543 in june 21 (43k rank).
We got our state merit list and it has deflated for my range too, while the medical colleges in our state in not the best all india but according to last years state cut off i should get one of the top and well established old gmc of the state (fingers crossed) .
ik my rank is not the best, i see kids with better rank than me having to take drop and i feel really guilty and undeserving. I was a school going kid who was always interested but didnt seriously prep for neet until 12th started. I didnt miss out on life and had fun.
I was always a smart kid, my parents and teachers are happy for me but ive heard from my relatives "state cut off low hai varna kuch nhi hota" which is true.
due to the deflation whatever college i end up at the seniors will be of better ranks and i feel like a dumb person trying to blend in.
added, im terrible at physics, i didnt even finishing my syllabus cus i just gave up by reneet and my mock scores were really low too (450+ mostly, sometimes 500+) none of my coaching teachers thought i could get this much too
im strong at bio and chem and thats what i worked most on. (350,156 in may3) and (340,130 in june 21 silly mistakes in bio 🥀)
im stuck between this wierd being the topper kid (from childhood) to a fake average kid and feel horrible about it.