u/iamthekrisis

hey there!

i just wanted to pour my thoughts about my experience being a transgender boy AND sofia isella fan 🏳️‍⚧️🐇

i came out as genderqueer more than 5 years ago now which has been a significant part of my life

i always had to struggle with the pressure of one of the two:

1.being a womanly woman before i came out

OR

2.being a manly man with testosterone pumping through my veins after i came out

this is where sofia isella comes in

listening to sof has honestly unlocked a new side of me. i've always been concious on how screwed the situation around gender equality, s3xualization and misogyny has been, but listening to her songs has made me research and think about it way more.

till this day i keep having this ugly voice in the back of my head saying "eugh, you are transitioning to a man yet you are listening to songs about feminism? you're not a MAN"

but being more and more in this community has made me realize that "you know what? screw gender norms, these are not healthy" and i've been finally looking for more peace inside of me with my gender identity.

i also want to add that one of my favorite songs is Man Made, and the song on its own already speaks about toxic masculinity, conditioning to certain beliefs and pressure on men to be tough to be considered "real men".

that song hits me ON A PERSONAL LEVELLLLLLLL ‼️

obviously i am not amab (assigned male at birth) so it is not the same but just for my own comfort i like to interpret some parts of that song as what i feel like is going on around me as a transmasculine individual. it's damn beautiful. EDIT: i also want to add that ANOTHER ONE OF MY FAVORITES is out in the garden... since it's about being perceived as demonic while you're just another human, it makes me think about people genuinely think theres something wrong with me for...*checks notes*...wanting to be comfortable in my own body?

overall i'd also love to mention that the world we live in made "feminism" sound like something inherently feminine, radical and negative

thanks to sofia's music i've been realizing what I actually believe in and what i stand for <3

yes, i'm a transgender boy. yes, i'm a "softboy". yes, screw pressuring to align with what people believe is femininity or masculinity. yes, I want to be a boy but i want to be the opposite of the men that Sofia speaks of in her songs. and yes, i'm a feminist.

YES, I LOVE BEING ALL THAT!!!

i would love to hear what you guys think about my tiny journey i went through with Sof's songs! everyone is welcome to answer, no matter your gender <3

if theres anyone here who's also genderqueer and MAYBE felt similar PLEASE let me know, just knowing that theres other people that felt in a similar way would immediately make my day x100 times better

so, what do you guys think?

thank you!