Why the Emperor? Feels Ominous.
Before you ask, yes I do pull reversed cards for myself regularly. At least twice as often (or more) as upright.
Standard Celtic Cross regarding my lately tangled and distant creativity.
Present situation/me - Queen of Cups Reversed
The Problem- King of Pentacles Reversed
The Past- 9 of Swords Reversed
The Near Future- Knight of Swords Reversed
Conscious/What I Know- The Sun
Unconscious/shadow- Temperance Reversed
My inner world- Magician Reversed
Environment/external influences- 7 of Pentacles Reversed
Hopes & Fears- the World
Overall/Outcome- The Emperor
I've been reading for decades but I often struggle for myself. I've been in a freeze/depression state for a while now and my energy for creative things is nil.
My thoughts: I'm insecure and heavily unbalanced. I've been destabilized by trying (and failing) to heal old wounds. I'm at risk of running headlong into disaster if I don't watch it. I can't stay in the sun and ignore the shadows forever. I want the world but lack the discipline to get it.
I'm the most confused by the Sun and especially the Emperor.
I did pull clarifiers for the Emperor- 5 of Swords Reversed, The Chariot Reversed, the Page of Swords Reversed.
Any thoughts are very appreciated.