Thoughts about conventions
Hey guys! I had my first convention yesterday and I’m still processing my emotions.
I wanted to write here to keep feeling a connection to all the SPN family so here it is.
To be completely transparent, I am a little disappointed, NOT BY THE ACTORS! But by the system of conventions in general
I always watch Jensen with his co-stars and behind the scene work and I had this idea of how Jensen is : a loving, caring, very creative and beautiful human being. But during the convention I felt like I got a very superficial version of him. I have ADHD and AUTISM and that means any superficial interaction in daily life already feels like my personal hell, so to do a photo op where I got no real interaction with the person it felt soul crushing.
The panel went so bad in my opinion because there was two questions where women OPENLY flirted with him in front of everyone and the questions were so gross. I was like “wait what? Why are they talking to him like this?? How? What?” And it felt like that shock made me zone out in my head thinking about all the things like this he must heard over the years and my heart Litteraly ached for him! I recognized it was an intense emotion i had (i have a lot of those) but it made me so very mad!
Now I’m in my bed just looking at our photo op and thinking one thing : This is just scripted… no connection with the person.. I didn’t earn that hug…
There is also very beautiful moments, I had a beautiful interaction with Mark shepard where I got to exchange with him over something and it felt amazing to be seen! Seen as a fan who doesn’t view the actors as just “hot people” or anything like that..
Anyway hope this text is not too negative for a chill Sunday 😂 I just wanted to know if there is other people out there who share the same sentiment