Pseudo/7oh
I’ve been with my partner for almost 3 years. I love him deeply and I hate coming online to talk about him but idk what else to do. I caught him sneaking 7oh pills around 2 months ago. He lied to me about them until I basically forced the truth out of him. He went through withdrawal which was absolutely the worst process. I thought for sure he wouldn’t do it again after going through that. He told me he would be getting professional help (seeing a doctor, therapist), but never did. He has maintained the illusion that he’s been sober this whole time. Even went as far as telling me how great and clear headed he feels now while we were making dinner last night.
This morning he got up around 5 am and went to the bathroom across the house. I knew in my gut that he was going to the bathroom to get a pill and come back to bed. So I got up and checked his hiding spot in the bathroom and sure enough there were pills. He’s saying they are “pseudo” and he only took it because he was sweating and thrashing trying to sleep. Claimed he has anxiety and the pseudo makes him go back to sleep.
When I found the pills, I turned the light on in the bedroom and made him get out of my house. I got him through withdrawal the first time and told him I wasn’t ever doing it again. He was obviously sobbing and very apologetic but it all sounded like word salad.
I don’t want to be insensitive here, but I also don’t want to be stupid by forgiving him. I am 35 years old with a 14 year old son. My son was not here during any of this and I’ve kept all drug convos away from his ears.
This is my first and only experience dealing with a partner that has substance issues. I cannot handle the constant lying.. makes me feel like I’m accepting horrible behavior.
Does anyone have any advice?
I apologize if this is unorganized, my brain is frazzled and my emotions are all over the place.