u/keitroll

Earlier today, my rep payee reached out to me yet again about getting my receipts, I once again said I was "working on them" (it's always been mental at this point, but I have had other issues and came close to returning inpatient for MDD several times in the last year). I received another email today from her saying [sic]

>[Me] these receipts were been supposed to be submitted to me. You have not once provided a receipt and you have been with program for over a year. I will let my supervisor know of this.

How screwed am I? What would happen if I can't satisfactorily give the needed receipts to them? I don't assume any of this is the rep payee's fault (at most it may just a conflict of communication types) and assume most of the responsibility/blame is on me. Am I overreacting, or is there legitimate cause for concern?

ADDED CONTEXT: I am in my early 40's, have AuDHD, ASD and major depressive disorder, never worked a full-time job, and never had a part-time job where I didn't have a mental breakdown or two. I have executive dysfunction and am severely disorganized but otherwise mentally competent. I have received benefits via a rep payee for between a year and 18 months, and I have received at least three back pay checks of $900 that I am supposed to give receipts for. CPTSD and executive dysfunction are my two biggest obstacles to send what I have back, as does the fear that I'd either lose my benefits, or have my rep payee switched against my will to my family of origin, who I have not been in contact with for the last eighteen months.

I get roughly $900 total in benefits between SSI and SSDI, and at least 2/3 of that goes towards rent and bills. I get $40/week from what remains, as well as $298/month from SNAP benefits.

I'd also be the first to tell you that a lot of this sounds like making excuses and feeling sorry for myself, and if you feel the same, I agree but please keep it to yourself. The first draft was a whole lot worse.