u/kodekpl12

Hi all, I am employed in England as a band 3 clinical staff NHS for 4 years, I am 23. I will not go into all details of my past mental health, I am currently on a full week leave for it due to being on suicide watch in A&E Sunday. I have had alot on my plate and stupidly began self medicating suspected ADHD with cocaine for about last 6 weeks, after quitting alcohol use 2 months ago, a coworker gave me a number for a dealer.

I quit last week, called FRANK. I attended my first SMART recovery group meeting Saturday then self referred to a local rehab program. I was then driven to A&E Sunday due to risk to commit suicide. The next day I saw my GP and was prescribed antidepressants, admitted to them my drug misuse and had an urgent referral put to Oxleays. I am now also attending private ADHD assessments, shared care.

My line manager was updated on all of this and told me to take the week off to get this sorted. I felt extremely guilty and admitted to them over the phone that I had also fallen into drug use and that my cocaine use got so bad I began using it at work when I had it for up to 3x a week for the last 4 weeks. I couldn't bear being dishonest, I feel I have betrayed my family and my workplace by being so stupid. Fortunately no direct harm came to people at work as a result of my misuse. My manager told me she'll keep me off the rota for the foreseeable future and get back to me on what will come of this confession, but I was still being referred to occupational health for a chronic health condition, mental health and now also my drug misuse.

I never misused drugs before this brief period. I am no longer in possession of any drugs as I quit last week and do not intend of ever touching it again and deleted the dealer numbers, and have no intention of returning to alcohol use either, and intend on staying on the recovery programme.

What is my likely outcome? Is there a possibility to keep my job? Will I be arrested? I recently joined the GMB union, should I contact them? What should I do?